[Sammy]

Okay. Well i posted a while back about how i went to the doc's, and to be honest i should have just spoke to a brick wall. He was more than useless.

So given all that i decided to try and get to the root of all my problems as best i can, but i have hit a wall. My last consious memory is from roughly aged 7, but looking back through my school reports my teachers were refering me to a child psychologist from the age of 4. I don't have any why's on the reports, just teachers stating that i was very withdrawn and showing signs of anxiety.

Judging from the reports, after 3 years with the psychologist my 'anxiety changed to attention seeking for a while, and then anger which then carried on right through until today. The meetings with the psycologist stopped after the three years upon my parents request. I do still get times of withdrawl, i would rather sit in my bedroom than go to the pub with friends. I disslike social interactions and i really go to pieces when confronted about something. I starting taking drugs from the age of 12. Fortunatly i stopped aged 17 but i don't think that really helped, just made it worse.

My parents don't recall anything abnormal about my childhood, apparently i always did missbehave from as far back as they can remember.

Basically i was just wondering if anybody knows how to unlock unconsious memories, or how to obtain reports from child psychologists?

Regards,
Sam x

[Direction]

Not sure if it really helps to try to dig up things you can't remember?

It's not so much where you were but where your heading...

[Sammy]

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Direction said:
Not sure if it really helps to try to dig up things you can't remember?

It's not so much where you were but where your heading...

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I can see what you mean, but alot of people have told me that you need to understand the problem to find a solution, which makes sence to me.

Maybe you're right, i should look forwards and forget the past. But the problem will always be there and i would like to fully understand where these feelings are coming from.

Take Care,
Sam.

[Direction]

I think the past can be helpful...I'm just thinking don't spend to much time there especially on things you don't remember. If you remember something it may help were your heading.

Just wanted to clarify that I didn't mean to ignore all the past.

[bipolar_bear]

Sometimes we remember things as we are ready to. Mabye give yourself some time? Take care.

BB