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I stopped posting on this site shortly before my 17 month old was born. After adopting my son, life got very busy. I quickly and easily fell in love with my new role of mom and although I occasionally struggled with depression/anxiety, it was very manageable and short lived. At least that was the case up until a week ago. Now, the depression and anxiety are getting harder and harder to deal with. This is the first real major depressive episode I've had since my son was born and I'm so thankful that I have him. He is the only thing keeping me going right now.

I should also mention that my hubby and I are thinking about adopting 2 kids from foster care (11 year old and 8 year old). We have been considering this for 3 months and have met the kids. I fell in love with them but my hubby wants a little more time to decide, so we are having them over again soon. I'm feeling frustrated because I don't want this depressive episode to possibly interfere with this adoption.

I plan on talking to my dr next week about increasing my Lexapro. My goal is to work closely with my therapist and dr in order to keep the severity of this episode as low as possible. Thanks for letting me vent. It helps to get it out of my head.

Hi agma,

Glad you are happy with the motherhood! You and your husband seem to be very sweet. I hope you will be able to manage this episode and proceed with the adoption process.

And yeah .. we all come here to vent

Stay strong !

are you seeing a therapist?

[Fuzzybear]

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Thanks everyone. I see a therapist weekly and she is helpful. Since we haven't decided for sure yet whether we are going to adopt the 2 kids, we have only told a couple of friends. It's really hard for me to keep this secret. I know everyone would be in support of us adding the kids to our family; however, I don't want to have to deal with all the questions if we ended up deciding not to adopt them.