Tired tired tired. Tired of fighting the internal battle. While dealing with the sh** in my life right now. Trying to separate from my husband who's still in denial. I told him almost 3 months ago. Trying to keep it together, we have a 5year old boy. So, still living together we also run a business. Or I do at least. Been trying to get the info I need to cut the ties both personally and business. It's such a long process to even find the steps I need to take. Trying to do all this while still keeping on top of the business and running the household is just too damn much. I'm going to break soon. I have been a lot lately. My husband does things to continue to be a family like constantly inviting people over for dinner. Buys me flowers. He won't let me move on. Then he's angry and everything's always my fault. Patience is a virtue. Patience is so thin at times. I'm so weak inside but I'm strong at the same time. I don't want to be the strong one all the time. I can't handle it! I'm so tired. So drained.

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Is there a possibility of hiring someone to help you either at home or in your business? It sounds like you are doing way too much for one person. You may need helpers to get you to the place that you need to be. If you can't take a vacation from it all, bring in some helpers to give yourself a bit of a respite or just some help. I don't know if I helped but I feel your exhaustion. Do you need a medication change for the depression? I am just throwing some things out. I hope that you find some answers soon. Hang in there and look at what things can help you as opposed to what things can help everyone else. Best wishes.

The changes I'm trying to make are so very slowly happening. I do have a lot on my plate for one person, and unfortunately that is what it is right now. Oh how I would love a vacation! I've talked to my dr about changing meds but she had her reasons not to. My T agreed on that. I keep trying to stay positive and look at where I'm headed opposed to letting myself fall into the depths of my depression. I'm so thankful for the rare friends I have that do understand. Thank you for your reply, it's nice to hear sound thoughts!

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(((Zayabean)))

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Originally Posted by Zayabean

The changes I'm trying to make are so very slowly happening. I do have a lot on my plate for one person, and unfortunately that is what it is right now. Oh how I would love a vacation! I've talked to my dr about changing meds but she had her reasons not to. My T agreed on that. I keep trying to stay positive and look at where I'm headed opposed to letting myself fall into the depths of my depression. I'm so thankful for the rare friends I have that do understand. Thank you for your reply, it's nice to hear sound thoughts!

Was just thinking how wonderful Hawaii sounded....the smells...flowers....sea.....the sounds...waves rolling in....sights...whales breaching.....things will get better....time moves slowly while we wait for positive changes.....keep those positive thougts.....Artie