[eggplantlife]

I wasn't going to say anything but I think I have to say something.
Someone really upset me, but I am just too tired of fighting back in writing.
I guess, I kind of deserve it but then maybe I didn't. I am the type because what happened always seem to blame myself when it isn't. I am trying very hard to stop doing this. It is so hard.
I don't know I just don't want to be around people anymore.
She was really mean mean and say about my karma. It got me real upset because so much bad things had happened. This thought came into my head that maybe, I will have actually good Karma from this because I actually helped her out. She just won't see that.
I've been in all my head trying not to think about it and move forward. Not being able to talk about it might be good or might not be.

I decided to write here because I guess, I couldn't keep it in my head.

I really am starting to feel wanting to go very far away from people.

There are really some nice people. I just can't seem to connect anymore.
I am trying to be okay with being myself.

I see the image of group hug. I am putting it here for others who feel the same way.



After writing this, I'm finally starting to cry. It's reasons like this you don't want to help people out.

I know about compassion and to give the person compassion..what about me?

All these to make myself feel better.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

You are probably right - you did you best to help someone, which is to your credit.

'No good turn goes unpunished' I always say, but that is the way of it, you have to keep trying.

[eggplantlife]

Thank you ManOfConstantSorrow.

[Smileonmyface]

[waterknob1234]

Hi eggplantlife. I'm glad you wrote to us to unload this pain off your chest. We are here to listen. It is a shame that some people have to be so mean. I just don't understand why people have to be so mean and hurt others. I have had to deal with this type of garbage too.

It is always good to be compassionate and caring and help others. Sometimes your efforts are not appreciated, but it still is good to be kind and compassionate. You are a good person.

[Mike_UK_71]

I think some people work off their own feelings of inadequacy by being mean and horrible to other people. Not a lot anyone can do about it but it sucks.

[vital]

Originally Posted by eggplantlife

I don't know I just don't want to be around people anymore.
She was really mean mean and say about my karma. It got me real upset because so much bad things had happened. This thought came into my head that maybe, I will have actually good Karma from this because I actually helped her out. She just won't see that.
I've been in all my head trying not to think about it and move forward. Not being able to talk about it might be good or might not be.

I decided to write here because I guess, I couldn't keep it in my head.

I really am starting to feel wanting to go very far away from people.

There are really some nice people. I just can't seem to connect anymore.
I am trying to be okay with being myself.

Dear eggplant,

Being OK by yourself is a wonderful thing, but it's nice to connect with us here too. I am glad you told us about your upset because I think it is an important clue. It is not widely known, but when people are depressed, the also often get hyper-sensitive to the slightest implicit criticism and it will cause them to be very upset for a long time. Depression has a big trick at this point that hides the underlying problem. It doesn't have anything to do with whether this person was mean intentionally or not or whether your feelings are justified or not or specifically what the person said or even whether the criticism is true or not. The problem is not the other person or your specific thoughts or feelings, the problem is HOW your thoughts and feelings are coming to you in general. Anyway, I don't know if you've seen it, but the notes on this link might help

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4369910-post130.html

- vital

I'm so glad you posted! You have to get things off your chest! I hope it helped at least a little bit...

People should always treat others the way they want and expect to be treated