Falling down

This sucks! Just started to get back on track and Nope, can't do it. Wanted to go back to work today but awake till 4 am in my own head. I have therapy this afternoon and now I'm worried about even getting out of the house for that. I did good for a couple days but now I'm isolating again and I don't know why.

I know that fear of not wanting to get outside, and the need to focus on what's in your head, while thinking that this must be done in the most tranquil place, i.e. home. I enjoy pain for some reason, perhaps because I want some attention, could that be the same case to you? If it is, then go share your pain with the therapist, talk as much s you want, then you'll feel alive again. Just don't be shy in front of the T (you might not be though), it's his/her job to listen to people. Get up, and face the world with your awesome inner self!!

perhaps..... (just guessing here).... but perhaps the anxiety of your pending therapy is a bit of a trigger for your depression?

I believe this is true for myself. Like a small part of me has so much hope quietly invested in therapy and at the same time - so little belief that it will ever be better. It makes me feel defeated before I even begin.

*hugs of support*

we may fall down, somehow we get up again. thats the theory anyway, you can't be brave unless you feel fear. I hope you can find your courage and see your T