what exactly is wrong with me?

I feel depressed but I don't know what's wrong with me. I have no energy no want to do anything, I'm so tired, I eat way to much like I'm never actually full. I need some help from anyone. And I'll also give you more of a story. I moved out of my gmaws which is who I consider my mom cause my real mother verbally abused me and everyone else. I was always called worthless am when I tried to date I was a ***** and she wanted money and blah blah. Then I meet my soul mate, and I got pregnant, and then my real mother destroyed us. As soon as I hit 18 I left her house and me an my son moved in with my soul mate, a few months later we were married. One of the happiest days of my life except my son being born. Then I got pregnant again and August 2014 our daughter was born. Another perfect angel. But I have always had depression for as long as I can remember I have had it but it get worse and worse, my husband is never home he works out of state 10 days and only home for 4 days, I don't have my license so I stock up before he leaves and I don't go anywhere for 10 days and barley go outside, I feel trapped, I'm trying to get my license but I suck butt at parallel parking a truck. And the past week I don't even want to clean the house. I want to lay around and cuddle with the kids, I don't want to move. But of course I force myself to cause no matter how sad I get I won't hurt my kids. So if someone could help me get a little energy I'd greatly appreciate it! !

Energy - I often feel like if I could just go to a doctor for energy shots, it would make things so much easier! One real thing to start with, make sure you are eating properly. Junk food or snacks too - fine. But get the protein and things you need to function. The other real thing is sleep. Get it.

Is there anywhere you can walk to to get out of the house? If no stores, a park? It's good to cuddle with your kids. But they need to be stimulated and have activity too.

I never feel like I have enough energy. So sometimes, I just literally drag my butt to do what I need to. I find it helps, not all the time, but some.

I know a lot of the runners and yoga folks in this group usually feel better after they do exercise. It may not be much take the kids out for a 15 or 20 minute walk. It is finally spring. If you live in a city start by walking around the block. Walk to a park and let the kids play and take in the fresh air. Or hang out in your back yard. Fresh air, even if just sitting in the sun on the porch has greatly helped me. Keep posting... the group can usually come up with ideas.

Wise advice from Color, I find the worst thing for my depression is to stay inside all day. Sometimes its so hard to get out, but that is when I need to the most. I don't have kids so I really admire you looking after them.

Hi ahyaa295!

I think that the first thing to do is to check for medical and nutritional issues, especially because of your comment about eating. There are lots of things you can do that are great for your health anyway. You can find some pointers in this post

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

- vital