[moostress]

Hi I'm new to this forum. I just want to make some friends here because I'm really struggling. I hate myself so much and cannot concentrate on work. I'm at work at the moment and what should be taking me 15 minutes to do is taking over 2 days to do. I keep spacing out and googling random things on the internet. I can't interact with people because I don't know what to say. Anytime that I am not at work I am either playing games or watching tv. I'm so afraid of not having that noise there, so afraid of anything outside of doing anything other than numbing my brain with meaningless entertainment. I'm so sick of myself and so sick of my preoccupation with myself. I keep thinking in my brain that I want to die.

What should I do?

[Rohag]

Hello, Moostress.

• self-hate
• cannot concentrate
• diminished self-direction
• social isolation?
• Possible trigger:

  thoughts of death

How long have you experienced what you describe?
Have you seen a medical doctor?

Please make yourself at home.

[Fuzzybear]

[vital]

Originally Posted by moostress

Hi I'm new to this forum. I just want to make some friends here because I'm really struggling. I hate myself so much and cannot concentrate on work. I'm at work at the moment and what should be taking me 15 minutes to do is taking over 2 days to do. I keep spacing out and googling random things on the internet. I can't interact with people because I don't know what to say. Anytime that I am not at work I am either playing games or watching tv. I'm so afraid of not having that noise there, so afraid of anything outside of doing anything other than numbing my brain with meaningless entertainment. I'm so sick of myself and so sick of my preoccupation with myself. I keep thinking in my brain that I want to die.

What should I do?

Gday moostress,

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

- vital

[mountainstream]

[Fizzyo]

you're as lovable as anyone else, please be kind to yourself

[catnip123]

I can empathize with what you described. I'm in a depressed place at the moment also. Can you go to a therapist or a consulor? Or a doctor? Even your general practitioner should be able to help you.
You've got a lot of people here that understand and are willing to support you.

Originally Posted by catnip123

I can empathize with what you described. I'm in a depressed place at the moment also. Can you go to a therapist or a consulor? Or a doctor? Even your general practitioner should be able to help you.
You've got a lot of people here that understand and are willing to support you.

Like catnip said... please reach out for some professional help. But we are here to listen. We understand. You are not alone! And you deserve to feel better.

[Fizzyo]

Well done for reaching out. I hope you can feel some support here.