[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Except for this one..

I feel that nobody cares about whatever I write here, making me feel more stupid than I already am. I imagine that whenever you read one of my threads you don't go "Oh, poor guy". Nope, not in this universe, because it seems that I'm complaining about stupid and minor stuff that only kids moan about. I mean, for God's sake, I posted a thread about me not wanting to go to a birthday party, I don't blame you people, I don't blame you at all. Will I be here helping worthier people than me? I will, because they deserve it, and it's unfortunate that I thought that I deserve your attention too. I don't even receive something as simple as online hugs from anyone, while if there ever was another button next to the "Thanks" and "Hugs" buttons that says "Punch", you will 100% give me that to finally shut me up once and for all, and I imagine it will be pressed by all of you. Does that all make me happy? No, of course not. In fact, it's one of the main reasons I've been majorly depressed lately.

If I ever stopped posting, I don't think people here will say "Where's that troglodyte guy? We miss him!" Again, not in this universe. Not just you, anyone, anywhere in this blue planet will never care about an incompetent ugly ogre that is Renounced Troglodyte. I bet myself a billion bucks if anyone will ever care about what I wrote on this thread, nor that a lot of people will even see it to begin with. Please, understand that this isn't something against you guys, not at all it's just me and my worthlessness and stupidity. I'm not trying to break your hearts, I'm just addressing something that needs to be addressed.

Bottom line (ironically), hooray for you boys and girls, no more me in the depression forum, thread wise.

[Hexagram]

Dude, hugs. You're a respected depressive persona on this forum, and were you to go, I would miss you.

[Angelique67]

Hi RT, I'm sorry you're feeling so down.

Sometimes things just get missed i have stopped posting in one area because someone was being very rude to me but dont feel like no one cares i know personally i dont post on all the threads i would like too because i feel like i will say the wrong thing or because my ocd says i cant but either way people care.

sorry you feel like you need to go.

hope you do stick around though. we do all care. their are lots of messages on these forums posted daily, and lots of people in lots of diffrent time zones, and people that do understand, but don't know what to say either because they are feeling the same and don't know how to respond, or because they are not in a place to reply

their are so many reasons why your messages may be missed

Hi RT. I am sorry you feel you have been overlooked. Personally, I work A LOT of hours, and I am not on here much. I do not generally go to the depression forum because I am already depressed. I have found it more helpful for my depression to go to the games forum to lift my sadness. The very nature of depression makes it hard for me to give other people advice--i.e. I have major depressive disorder. For me to tap out much of an answer most days is just more than I can handle.

[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Originally Posted by Hexagram

Dude, hugs. You're a respected depressive persona on this forum, and were you to go, I would miss you.

You're already saying goodbyes even though I said I'm not leaving, I just said "no more threads", no more Troglodyte headlines, which shows me how much no one cares or loves me, but I'll be here helping other people, so I'm not leaving, but I will not get help from anyone anymore ever again, here or from my therapist, or from my people. So, yeah, you will all be stuck with me, just not in a spot light kind of way.

[Fizzyo]

Hey RT I didn't see your posts, that's why no response from me. I recognise your name and you give some helpful responses, would be sorry if I didn't see your posts again.

[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Originally Posted by eden1515

Sometimes things just get missed i have stopped posting in one area because someone was being very rude to me but dont feel like no one cares i know personally i dont post on all the threads i would like too because i feel like i will say the wrong thing or because my ocd says i cant but either way people care.

It's not that. I understand.. correction, I KNOW that things get overlooked. But, when one of my threads isn't overlooked, people don't seem to find my problems interesting for a more involved reply for them to post, and they leave no hugs behind, which may sound silly but it depresses me like crazy, and all I know is that I'm stressed out afterwards with no hope left in me, I swear to God that's what happens. I sometimes see threads with zero replies that have hugs, even if they (the threads) were posted for a long time, and not from new members. I want everybody to be honest with me, and say directly that what I said isn't serious, and I will then understand the argument instead of wandering in circles, making guesses and explanations as to why such thing happened to me.

[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Originally Posted by Fizzyo

Hey RT I didn't see your posts, that's why no response from me. I recognise your name and you give some helpful responses, would be sorry if I didn't see your posts again.

Thank you. Again, I will be here, posting the things that you appreciated same as always, but I will not post threads under my name, because I don't seem to be worthy of people's time and interests, and I totally understand, and this is something against me not them, not at all!

[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

sorry you feel like you need to go.

hope you do stick around though. we do all care. their are lots of messages on these forums posted daily, and lots of people in lots of diffrent time zones, and people that do understand, but don't know what to say either because they are feeling the same and don't know how to respond, or because they are not in a place to reply

their are so many reasons why your messages may be missed

You are absolutely right, but I feel that what I write is straight up stupid, that's why I'm not posting threads under my name anymore, but I will leave replies for those in need. I'm still here, but not by posting threads. Thank you so much for empathizing with me Only sane people do that, I don't see how your sanity is shattered

[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Originally Posted by Ponygirl2015

Hi RT. I am sorry you feel you have been overlooked. Personally, I work A LOT of hours, and I am not on here much. I do not generally go to the depression forum because I am already depressed. I have found it more helpful for my depression to go to the games forum to lift my sadness. The very nature of depression makes it hard for me to give other people advice--i.e. I have major depressive disorder. For me to tap out much of an answer most days is just more than I can handle.

I know how you feel, extremely I am here only to get things out of my system, as in talk therapy, I guess. When I'm depressed, instead of finding distractions, I keep recalling painful memories, and remember how worthless I really am. If you want my help, I'm more than ready to help you I just don't want people to care for me anymore, I don't require help anymore.

[Fizzyo]

Originally Posted by RenouncedTroglodyte

Thank you. Again, I will be here, posting the things that you appreciated same as always, but I will not post threads under my name, because I don't seem to be worthy of people's time and interests, and I totally understand, and this is something against me not them, not at all!

I think you are as worthy as anyone else, but I respect your right to your own opinion.

Originally Posted by RenouncedTroglodyte

I know how you feel, extremely I am here only to get things out of my system, as in talk therapy, I guess. When I'm depressed, instead of finding distractions, I keep recalling painful memories, and remember how worthless I really am. If you want my help, I'm more than ready to help you I just don't want people to care for me anymore, I don't require help anymore.

RT, venting is good if expressed in a healthy way. Please do not cut yourself off from others. We do care! You are VERY WORTHWHILE ! I am sorry I am not on here more often. I work a lot, and try to make a bit of time for recreation. That is one reason I like the games forum. I do not go on the arcade games as my phone will not let me. But there are games that individual people have made up. Even if no one else is on at the time, I know someone will read it later. So, the distraction is very helpful to help lift our spirits.

[waterknob1234]

You are a good person. I wanted to reach out because you are as worthy of recognition as everyone else here.

[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Originally Posted by waterknob1234

You are a good person. I wanted to reach out because you are as worthy of recognition as everyone else here.

You're the good person between us two I thank you for caring very much about me. I probably don't really deserve that.

[Smileonmyface]

Hugs.sorry you feel like this. I recognized your name as well you have helped me with your posts thank you.

It makes me a little nervous to start a thread. I worry that no one will respond to it. When I first found this forum, I posted a new message and later saw that 67 people had read it and not a single person had replied or left a "thanks" or a "hug". It didn't feel good.

I didn't see your post about the birthday party. I don't like to go to parties anymore. Too much anxiety, plus I don't have a car now so I can't leave if I want to.

[Ruftin]

__________ I think you already know how I feel about you!!! I'm overwhelmed by my own depression right now and don't have the courage/energy to post in or go to the depressions forum.

[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Originally Posted by Ruftin

__________ I think you already know how I feel about you!!! I'm overwhelmed by my own depression right now and don't have the courage/energy to post in or go to the depressions forum.

Hey, my dear friend You don't need to worry about me. In fact, I need you to focus on yourself and getting yourself out of your current state. It's more important than what I must recover from

[Dog on a Tree]

Hello buddy, I've been through something very similar on another forum but it's my fault. I get impulsive, and angry because I felt I was putting alot of effort into people's threads and hugging them etc. So on two occasions I kicked off. I realize like I did before that it's a mental health forum and people are dealing with their own problems, etc or there busy or they don't feel like answering. So I understand this logically but not emotionally but i'm working on it.

Btw i'm not blaming you at all i'm just telling about my own experience. I hope you will overcome this. Sending you much love and hugs

[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Originally Posted by Dog on a Tree

Hello buddy, I've been through something very similar on another forum but it's my fault. I get impulsive, and angry because I felt I was putting alot of effort into people's threads and hugging them etc. So on two occasions I kicked off. I realize like I did before that it's a mental health forum and people are dealing with their own problems, etc or there busy or they don't feel like answering. So I understand this logically but not emotionally but i'm working on it.

Btw i'm not blaming you at all i'm just telling about my own experience. I hope you will overcome this. Sending you much love and hugs

I hear you, friend I see your point. I don't know what's real anymore man. I feel like I'm a different person these days, it's almost schizophrenic. Although it isn't, but you get the point. I'm still hungover after my huge flop today.

Hi again RT. I have been checking in on you today. : ) You seem to have a strength that you do not realize. Perhaps your strength is in helping others. That is, YOU become stronger when you support others. That is not to say that we do not all have times when WE need support. And like so many others, we have our bad days and our good days.

Originally Posted by RenouncedTroglodyte

Hey, my dear friend You don't need to worry about me. In fact, I need you to focus on yourself and getting yourself out of your current state. It's more important than what I must recover from

but isn't 1 person just as important as the next?

that's how i see it

[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Originally Posted by Ponygirl2015

Hi again RT. I have been checking in on you today. : ) You seem to have a strength that you do not realize. Perhaps your strength is in helping others. That is, YOU become stronger when you support others. That is not to say that we do not all have times when WE need support. And like so many others, we have our bad days and our good days.

I'm glad that you actually care about what I'm going through It makes me want to cry. I wish I can be helpful to you as well.

And, i agree with you 100%! That is such a strongly intuitive noticing power! I never saw it like that before, although I did feel it, but I just couldn't point my finger at the right way to address that feeling.