[AngstyLady]

It's very disconcerning when someone you think is a friend just changes like night and day. I don't understand. I've had this happen before, so it's not new- but every time it is very upsetting. For instance, I had a coworker friend that all of a sudden has a look of disdain towards me and avoids me at all costs. Like what the ****? Can you please communicate and let me know what's up? People can be so immature. I'm beyond this high school ****- but it seems most adults aren't. I'm going to continue to be the same me- nice and friendly and helpful and empathetic and try to continue to have resilience in the face of adversity- I really don't understand some people sometimes . . .

I try not to let it get me down- it makes me wish I could up and leave my job even more- even though there are some nice people there that make it fun to work there- but I have too many interests that I never seem to have the time for- I need to continue to go out to poetry readings/slams and collect my poems to maybe publish them- I still need to learn to play guitar and take ballet lessons, learn to play the clarinet and the piano, refine my drawing skills and practice painting/take a painting class. I need to refresh my Mandarin language skills and learn Spanish, French and Italian. I need to join a volleyball or softball team again, or a soccer team, I need to reach my goal weight and continue to practice a bit of yoga or at least stretch every day as well as do push ups and situps on a daily basis( something I've gotten back into recently). I need to finish reading the five books I've started. . . The list goes on. . . I need to continue to have faith in people and put myself out there to try and make friends- I need to continue to try and look for a new job even though I'm very much apathetic about finding a good one and getting a call back-
It's hard to stay positive when so many people make me feel so small . . .
Like people in my neighborhood where I used to work- it sucks because they like to pretend not to see me- I guess it's awkward for them too. Sorry I left the store, nothing against anyone (well except a few and my ex still roams the area and was starting to frequent the place again- long story) Sorry I still live in YOUR neighborhood and don't live up to your standards. I've grown good at pretending not to see people on the streets, I learned vicariously. . . .. A lot has been on my mind lately, sorry for rambling.

[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Hello there!

I'm not the kind of guy who tells people to see the glass half full, but please, see the glass half full. The fact that some people suddenly just left you with no reason or explanation, it probably means they were fake friends, or simply they were there for their own ends, their own benefits, forgetting the beauty of true friendship. I know how frustrating it is, because everyone in my life has left me because I was brooding the whole time, but at the same time I was the most loving and caring, giving the best I can to sustain a friendship. But, I did lose all hope, until I met a few friends, two friends, actually, who are exactly like me. I have searched for people like them ever since elementary. Not really, but you get the point And I know that seeing how immature people can get these days is indeed annoying and very mysterious, but that is a positive for you, because you are actually more mature than them.

And, never apologize for rambling here! I do it all the time Please, keep having faith in people, because it will pay off one day!

Good luck achieving your goals

[Fuzzybear]

Indeed ... SO Not Cool

Peace to you