[jazzyswope]

Hello. 330 am. Don't want to go to sleep. I'm not sure what to write here, but I want to say something. I guess I'm feeling lonely. Go figure, kids and husband are in bed, as we all should be. I just had my second daughter a month ago so I'm still off work. I hate to say it but I'm bored of being of home. I'm stuck inside all day and night. I feel cooped up, caged. But I love my girls, don't get me wrong! They're my world! But just, personally, to myself, something is missing. Everyday is the same. I'm feeling like a broken record. I'm on Zoloft, but it does nothing, besides making me a shell. Its numbing me more than helping me. Im easily annoyed, irratated by my husband. I think he is miserable about me. Everyday he is out working on or riding his motorcycle and I don't want to do anything. I just sit on the couch watching my children and TV, in and out of naps. Ugh. I wish I could just clear my head.

[Fuzzybear]

[Keyslost]

Would daycare and PT or FT job help at all? At least then you could be happy again.

[jazzyswope]

I work part time. I have about two weeks of maternity leave left. I work days and my husband works doubles on weekends only. So we don't use a baby sitter or day care. That's how I want it anyway.
I can't remember a time in my life that I didn't feel like I do. I've always been an observer, an introvert. Only when I was 20 I got into alcohol and partying but even still, if I wasn't doing that is lay in bed, sleep, just feel hopeless and like I was going nowhere. I'm thankful for my husband and girls. they really saved me. Its just in my head I'm stuck. I have no reason to feel this way. I mean, even at 18 I had an abusive boyfriend, that lasted a few years but I feel like I'm over that and in a better place. But I still feel broken and empty some where inside. I've tried celexa, viibryd, and currently Zoloft. I began medication just at 24, last year. I never wanted to but with my family now I felt like I had to do something because otherwise id stay in Ned, didn't want to answer calls, go to work, make plans. I feel like If only _____ would happen (don't know what that'd be!) I'd be better. I can't figure it out

[FMLAMAN]

Have you brought up the idea to your Doc that perhaps an SNRI rather than Zoloft might be of more benefit for you? It was just a thought given that about 65% of Depression sufferers actually have a deficiency of Norephinepherine, rather than Serotonin.

I'm not too good at advice except when it comes to meds. I'm pretty much a Human Lab Rat and at least from my past experience I can tell you what meds in general seem to be more effective than others.

If your not keen on the Med route (and if your overall Depression is not of too severe in scale then a couple very specific high quality Aminos combined with the right supplements really can boost neurotransmitter levels so that may also be an option.)

[jazzyswope]

I never looked into an SNRI before. I just told my doc how I was and took what they gave me. But from what I read it is definitely worth a call to my doc. I'm going to do that in the morning. Thank you!

[Lika Li]

Hi Jazzyswope!

Have you tried therapy? Someone to speak face to face maybe can help!

Hugs.