[saavik2399]

Hi,

I've been in the psych ward on two seperate occasions for suicidal ideation thanks to PTSD, depression, and anxiety. I am terrified of going back there. The anxiety of going back there is as bad as the anxiety I feel on a day to day basis and makes all of the small day to day anxieties much worse. What can I do? I feel like I'm haunted by the psych ward and like my memories of being there will never fade.

[wa(o)rrior]

Hi Friend

When you had your breakdown the psych ward was supposed to be a haven. were you treated with harshness or abused? is so the trauma has got registered in your subconscious mind. so it scares the hell out of you to think about visiting it again. these memories have to be healed or its going to torment you for a long time. talk to a therapist who can help you with this. following up with a therapist may save you from breakdown which can prevent you from being confined to psych ward.

[Arcanely]

I'm in a similar situation. I find that it's best - cliche as it sounds - to continue with my psychiatrist to combat my issues so that I don't go back once more. If you feel suicidal, tell them so, but don't mentioned plans. Feeling suicidal is, in their eyes, much different from having a plan and method. Downplay it, but mention it enough to where they understand that you do need the help - assuming you're in therapy.

MY experience is that unpleasant things happen in psych units. I voluntarily went for a three day intensive with my Dr. He was in a car accident & so my stay was extended. Was having a talk with a DEAF patient who read lips excellently & in two languages but of course needed to be facing you. Suddenly two big guys come in from behind her hollaring for her to turn around & stay calm. We all started hollaring "she's deaf". But cuz she did not turn around, they took her down to the floor & restrained her. U could see the terror on her face & she was an abuse survivor. So I could just imagine what was going threw her mind. Decided after that that the only way I'd ever go back was if I was so out of it I didn't know where I was. What is that old saying....never volunteer.

Im terrified too. I had terrible experiences in the locked wards. I dont want to go back but they nearly made me today

[saavik2399]

Originally Posted by Arcanely

I'm in a similar situation. I find that it's best - cliche as it sounds - to continue with my psychiatrist to combat my issues so that I don't go back once more. If you feel suicidal, tell them so, but don't mentioned plans. Feeling suicidal is, in their eyes, much different from having a plan and method. Downplay it, but mention it enough to where they understand that you do need the help - assuming you're in therapy.

That's what I've been doing lately. I still don't quite understand why I'm so anxious about going back there, but no matter the root cause the psych ward anxiety increases all other anxiety.