[MoonSunn]

Hey.

I am depressed, it is hard to lift this depression with alcohol and drugs, I am a burden to my surroundings, I look like a dead person. People are doing me a favor of hanging out with me and openly say so. 'I am alright', just that my brains are depleted and I automatically jump to negativity (did a test and noticed just how different I think when my brains are okay).

How do you deal with this? Solitude is okay just because socializing is hard, solitude kills me over time, I'd rather be with people and have a real connection with them. I am very talkative but because of the way I am, my life lacks things to talk about and there will be sadness in my words which scares people away

[hpocus]

The gross and nearly useless answer is you just do it. You force yourself. If you feel better talking with people, then go be with people.

I find being around people without actually talking to them sometimes is easier. Go to a busy park, or go see a movie. Yes, by yourself. At least you're not completely alone, and you're kind of experiencing something with someone else. Plus, then you'll have something to talk about - the movie, or people watching, or whatever you did.

[Lika Li]

Maybe you can find some group with the same preferencies?

[MoonSunn]

Hard to, I'm an outsider. Part self-made, part pushed into it. Hard to find people I can relate to, well at least I can pretend I do

I can relate to you as the outsider. Even when I am around people, and carry on conversations with them, I many times don't relate at all. I do pretend a lot, but sometimes a person comes along that thinks similar to me. How I deal with it is when I do not relate I try to view it as being diverse, in nature and personality. I also talk about sad things a lot but just try to do your best, that is good enough, in m opinion. Solitude is hard I so agree..

[vital]

Originally Posted by MoonSunn

Hey.

I am depressed, it is hard to lift this depression with alcohol and drugs, I am a burden to my surroundings, I look like a dead person. People are doing me a favor of hanging out with me and openly say so. 'I am alright', just that my brains are depleted and I automatically jump to negativity (did a test and noticed just how different I think when my brains are okay).

How do you deal with this? Solitude is okay just because socializing is hard, solitude kills me over time, I'd rather be with people and have a real connection with them. I am very talkative but because of the way I am, my life lacks things to talk about and there will be sadness in my words which scares people away

Hi MoonSunn,

You can probably tell yourself that alcohol and drugs aren't going to work.

The first thing I would do is to check if there is something physical or nutritional is going on with you that's contributing to your problems. I've got a list here. If, for intstance, you have hypothyroidism, you're going to feel very mentally depleted. Gotta check these things:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

In the mean time, for the pure depression part of things, these notes might help:

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

- vital

[hpocus]

Those are good notes.