[Novicix]

Does this happen to anyone else? If so please share!

I usually isolate myself and I can spend a very long time being alone, and I'm reaaally happy and relaxed
But one day, out of nowhere, I suddenly feel extremely lonely.
However, for some weird reason (damn you, brain), I don't want to interact with anybody ?? or not only that, but I haven't talked to anyone for weeks/months and I'd feel super awkward to start a conversation now.

I hate this! It makes me feel awful!
I'm not sure if this is a common symptom of depression *shrug*
Please tell me i'm not the only one who does this

[Living Dead Guy]

your not the only one.

I haven't had friends in years usually this doesn't bother me but then there will come a day I just need to get out and do something with someone. But who? I've pushed everyone away for so long there is nobody left.

I'm BPD though for me it stems from a conflict between fear of abandonment and a need to be loved or at least recognized.

I hope someone else has something to add that can help you.

[belladonna1]

How do you know so much? My doctor won't tell me these things! He just reassures me that all is fine.

I suspect there's more. I also feel like I am alone all the time (I am, outside of work), and I have zero desire for friends. None. My family alone is hard, although I do enjoy spending time with my teenaged son, although he's too busy for me.

I feel very little self-esteem which is weird because my self-esteem until recently has always been excellent.

I worry that this is caused by a severe, recent head injury that knocked me out and left me with a massive concussion, even though the neurologist said I was fine and so did my psychiatrist, which made me know someone was off base since I'm not only not fine, I'm noticeably not fine.

[Lika Li]

You're not alone.
I am depressed and feel exactly what you writed, a very uncomfortable feeling to be around people, because my too low energy makes me feel very miserable around people. I think it's different from social phobia. Depression itself can make me feel afraid of people.