im never alone ,im alone all the time

idk wth to do anymore ,ive come to the conclusion that im never going to be accepted in this world ,i know im saying things trying to clear my mind and i figure no one is listening ...other peoples problems are pretty clear to those on the outside looking in, i know big pity party right ? dont mean for it to be that way im venting bc im suicidal, but i want to atleast try to live with the hand i was dealt so i can honestly say i gave it my damndest but im feeling really weak right now...i hope im not living in vain smh i dont know how to be happy and i cant smile

I don't believe that we live in vain.

Hi Jesskeezie, that's a lot of pain to cope with, thanks for having the courage to share with us. I too believe we can find a purpose in life though at times it's impossible to see it. People here will accept you, I know from experience. I also believe that, as a human being you are as valuable as anyone else. Be kind to yourself, as best as you can, you deserve it.

I, too, have felt alone/never alone. Also spent time feeling that I don't fit in, that i have no purpose, and that maybe I should simply cease to be. Here's what I've learned: Things change. Even if I have thought about every possible scenario and am convinced there is no way anything could possibly be better, somehow something happens. I began to realize that I can only think of what is in my mind. Fortunately others have different stuff in their minds. And their perspective can enlarge mine. Even if I don't do anything, "something happens." Trust. Things will change.