[jakers59]

I don't even know what's wrong with me anymore, I can't control myself no matter what I try to do, I'm out of control. My therapist tells me to try and look at things differently or distract or refocus on something else, but it's no use, the thoughts and excuses and painful feelings come and take me over and I can't handle it. I knew that sealing with mental problems was hard, but I never thought it would be this hard, and it just keeps getting worse and more difficult with each passing day. It never stops, I say that I want to change, but I can't even go 1 day without throwing in the towel and quitting. What then? It's not like anything else will do any good, because that's the best a therapist or doctor can do, and yes I'm on medication, a lot of it, and I've been on 4 others too.

[lavendersage]

Well, 4, in the world of psych drugs is nothing. And it's a crap shoot - you just have to try other things - and stay on them until they reach their "effective" level (which, on average, is 6-8 weeks) before switching to try a different med.

It's not fun and it's no guarantee that anything will ever help.

But it IS a guarantee that if you:

1) don't stay on a med for at least as long as it takes to become effective in general (barring, of course, horrific side effects - as all meds come with side effects many of which are passing and you have to "take the good with the bad")

your body will become resistant to medication treatment

and

2) if you don't keep trying, you definitely won't find a medication that may help you.

I wish you the best. Keep posting!

[Skeezyks]

Hello jakers59: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. I wish I had some magic solution to offer you. I don't. If there is one thing I'm certain of, it's that there are no magic solutions. The options are all right there, laid out in front of us, for all of us to see... psych med's, therapy, etc. Some things work for one person, not for others. Some individuals find that nothing seems to work for them. Sometimes something that didn't work at one point, will work at some other point, under different circumstances. All one can do is to keep trying until something "clicks". Something will. It's a matter of persevering until you find it.

Personally nothing the mental health system has offered me has been of much value. So I've had to come to the realization that I have to find my own way. It's not always easy. But, in a sense, coming to the realization that I have to heal myself has been the beginning of my recovery. I wish you well...

Hi Jaker. I am sorry you are having a difficult time. I also suffer from depression. I call it a huge black hole without a bottom in it that you just feel a sinking feeling falling into it. Hang in there, it does get better. I am on various meds. For the first three weeks i slept like a zombie. Then I got anxious, and upset stomach. But i got the right meds finally and i wake up feeling better. I actually can function. And i can sleep good and it is something. If things persist tell your Dr. asap. Perhaps they can do a different med for you. Or you could do some group therapy with peer group support of others. They can walk you through it with you to the other side. You are never alone, You always have options. you just have to take them. Don't give up for you are worth the effort and every human being is of great value, like you. Know we care here and we are a community of fellows who suffer also. I hope this all helps. tc and Blessings.