I literally cant talk i am too depressed i feel horrible i am moving so slowly and everything is heavy i am trying so hard but i just cant seem to make it stop and the last few weeks i couldnt sit still and was doing all this stuff i dont understand i mean i still felt horrible before but it is like the weird buzz is gone i keep falling asleep too. I dont know what to do i am so tired and my head wont stop and i feel so worthless and guilty and horrible and useless and ugh i cant stop self harming either i am sorry.

[ensconce]

No need to apologize, please try to resist harming yourself and try to think of things that you would like to do that would make you happy. What helps me when I am like this is to imagine a person that I know very well in my head and I loop through all of the nice and encouraging things they have said to me. Try to combat the negative thoughts with positive ones, don't let it beat you keep trying don't give up.

Thank you i am trying i just feel so bad i dont understand what i did wrong

[Fuzzybear]

[lonely-and-sad]

I think you should seek some medical assistance if you haven't done so.

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I am seeing a psychologist and psychiatrist but they don't know what to do with me anymore. I like I am a horrible person.

[Clara22]

Why do you say "I am a horrible person"?

Because I am

[lonely-and-sad]

Go in there and start asking about what the strategy is for you. Ask both the psych and the therapist. If answers REALLY are unsatisfactory then find another. But ask yourself. Is it because you dont want to do what they say you need to do?

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[Clara22]

Eden, I am not sure what you mean when you say you are a horrible person, I am not sure if you mean that you did horrible things then you deserve what you got?

[Redlips333]

Originally Posted by eden1515

I am seeing a psychologist and psychiatrist but they don't know what to do with me anymore. I like I am a horrible person.

No don't say that you are NOT a horrible person. You are just going through a hard time in your life. You will get better soon just have to keep pushing forward beautiful. I have faith in you. I'm kind of a hypocrite bc I think the same of myself but what I've learned from others is that we have to RECOGNIZE that this is not really US talking this is that stupid DEPRESSION! YOU ARE GREAT! i dont even know you but girl you're wonderful!

Originally Posted by lonely-and-sad

Go in there and start asking about what the strategy is for you. Ask both the psych and the therapist. If answers REALLY are unsatisfactory then find another. But ask yourself. Is it because you dont want to do what they say you need to do?

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A lot of the things i cant do because of my OCD and there is no one else left to see i live in a small area and there arent many services for mental health.

Originally Posted by Clara22

Eden, I am not sure what you mean when you say you are a horrible person, I am not sure if you mean that you did horrible things then you deserve what you got?

I am just a bad person i have done some bad things but also i am just horrible in general i hate myself.

[Clara22]

I do not think how to say this but in my opinion , this is not the way things work in this world I think . Bad people do not get any punishment naturally, people do not get a mental health problem because they are bad. But sometimes guilt makes us be sick or get a mental health condition. Do you think that can be your case?

Originally Posted by Clara22

I do not think how to say this but in my opinion , this is not the way things work in this world I think . Bad people do not get any punishment naturally, people do not get a mental health problem because they are bad. But sometimes guilt makes us be sick or get a mental health condition. Do you think that can be your case?

I have had mental health problems for my whole life like literally since i was born i think some people are just not made to be happy.

[Clara22]

I agree with you in this: some of us are born with some tendencies to acquire a mental health condition, but i think we can do something about it. Sometimes there are additional issues (poverty, other illnesses, etc, that affect us, then recovery is even more difficult

Yes I am just I really don't know what to do everyone keeps saying it I gets better but I don't know that I believe that.

[RessurectMe]

sorry that you are feeling this way. i can relate, but it is all new to me in life. i am 45 and didnt' not feel like this until 10 months ago.

[Clara22]

I understand you, sometimes it happens to me, as well. In an ideal world, what would you like to achieve, what are your dreams?

I don't have any dreams anymore I won't be able to achieve anything I would not fit in an ideal world I would poison it.

[Clara22]

But, if you were not that bad, what would you like to do?

I don't know

[Clara22]

Could you try to think about something?

[elin95]

((((((eden1515))))))

Do you live alone or with people if I may ask ?

I live with people and I really can't think of anything. I never know what it want it is like something is constantly missing and no matter how hard I try I can never find it.