[elianahope]

Lately I’ve been having suicidal thoughts. I feel so alone, worthless, hopeless. I was the one that was there for others and no one is there for me. Sometimes, reaching out just proves is more. Like, no one understands or cares. Most of the time, I’m so unhappy. I already know that things are not going to get better, this is just how my life is. I don’t know why I keep reaching out then, it only leads to more frustration. I’m not sure what to do anymore. So people’s lives are just messed up from the start. I hate how people say that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, some problems last a lifetime. Why do people act like suicide is so bad anyways? Is it so horrible to release a person from their ongoing pain and suffering? Of course there are good times, but it’s not worth it. If there is a heaven, there is no pain or suffering. I don’t know. I’m really scared to die though and I’m unsure what happens after life on earth. I don’t know. I’m just hurting so bad and I’m completely alone. People hate me and I have like no friends or family. I’m like really flawed or something because once people get to know me, they want me gone. People have so many judgments about me. A few years ago, I use to be naïve and thought that this world was good and people just want to help each other. Now, I realize we are truly alone in this world and we have to do things by ourselves. Well, I have birth family and I was the one who kept giving. They think my life is just so great. I know people may judge and say that I am just feeling sorry for myself, that is why I don’t like opening up too much. This is really how I feel and it’s painful. There is like nothing or no one to turn to it feels like.

[vital]

Originally Posted by elianahope

Lately I’ve been having suicidal thoughts. I feel so alone, worthless, hopeless. I was the one that was there for others and no one is there for me. Sometimes, reaching out just proves is more. Like, no one understands or cares. Most of the time, I’m so unhappy. I already know that things are not going to get better, this is just how my life is. I don’t know why I keep reaching out then, it only leads to more frustration. I’m not sure what to do anymore. So people’s lives are just messed up from the start. I hate how people say that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, some problems last a lifetime. Why do people act like suicide is so bad anyways? Is it so horrible to release a person from their ongoing pain and suffering? Of course there are good times, but it’s not worth it. If there is a heaven, there is no pain or suffering. I don’t know. I’m really scared to die though and I’m unsure what happens after life on earth. I don’t know. I’m just hurting so bad and I’m completely alone. People hate me and I have like no friends or family. I’m like really flawed or something because once people get to know me, they want me gone. People have so many judgments about me. A few years ago, I use to be naïve and thought that this world was good and people just want to help each other. Now, I realize we are truly alone in this world and we have to do things by ourselves. Well, I have birth family and I was the one who kept giving. They think my life is just so great. I know people may judge and say that I am just feeling sorry for myself, that is why I don’t like opening up too much. This is really how I feel and it’s painful. There is like nothing or no one to turn to it feels like.

Dear elianahope,

I just watched your inspirational youtube video

and your earlier posts. Have you moved out of that bad living situation? Are you still involved with your church?

You've been through so much, I don't know if my experience is really comparable, but here's the best I have for depression:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

- vital

[wa(o)rrior]

Dear friend

We have all been conditioned right from the beginning for thousands of years that taking a life, your's or another's, is a SIN. i used to have the same debate why is suicide considered a cowardice thing ? when it actually takes a lot of guts to attempt it. isn't it the easy way out to end things which are so complicated that doesn't make sense to anyone even-more to ourselves. i used to argue with myself its another way of death like dying in accident or disease. atleast we go out willingly than those dying in accident or disease, who struggle to live even it's for few days.

Then i got into Spirituality and read more or more. every religion condemns suicide (except for those who blow themselves up, which i believe is totally misinterpreted and brainwashed to those poor souls). and every religion says your soul is eternal. and what do you say when someone is going thru severe hardship in his/her life?-" Poor soul" which means the soul is suffering

So i raised myself another question what if the soul still suffers after we end our lives. ofcourse its a fact that your physical body doesn't suffer any pain but what happens if our soul still suffers? its totally a waste of human life because we thought we could end the suffering. well if its physical pain then atleast the pain goes when we end our lives.
so that convinced me not to take my life on my own. and i have undertaken a pledge to heal my soul. i feel my soul happy when i help others. it doesn't have to be monetary. being kind, helpful, compassionate, caring, loving. nobody can deny the fact that these things heal your soul.

[Fuzzybear]

[Facades_mask_truth]

I'm so lonely too.
Lets be lonely together

[arundelle]

It's because financially, it's better for the community if you work and contribute, pay your taxes, etc.

I personally think suicide is so hard on the people left behind because it comes as a shock. No one talks about it ahead of time, and everyone always thinks they could have done something to stop it, so they're guilty. If the stigma was taken away, and people knew the real reasons behind it so they didn't take the blame, I think it would be a whole different ballgame.

Also, there are societies that don't stigmatize suicides. It's not across the board.

[elianahope]

Originally Posted by Facades_mask_truth

I'm so lonely too.
Lets be lonely together

How have you been feeling lately? Sorry, I don't get on much and I just read your reply. I hope things are going well for you. <3