[lexy92]

How do I control my anxiety/depression at work. I hate feeling like this at work. I feel like I wanna die I wanna fuxkin kill myself right now everyone and everything is pissing me off. And I cnt leave work how do I go thru the day

Reading your post made me remember my first depressive episode in my mid-20s and how awful it made my work.

If this is something persistent that you're dealing with, I'd encourage you to see if you can get some time off. Vacation time, whatever. (I don't know what sort of job you have - salaried, hourly, etc.)

Even if you can't get time off, the plan is sort of the same. I would make an appt. with a primary care doctor to talk about what's going on with you. Finding a therapist is the next thing to do.

Trying to keep my job was a big reason that I started taking psych meds. Ideally, we'd be able to take time away from work to educate ourselves about what's going on and to learn about depression and anxiety and ways to cope. Specific foods, exercise, relaxation, massage...there are lots of things that can help. It takes time to learn all this stuff.

Most of us don't have the financial cushion to be able to stop working while we learn this stuff, though, so we have to try to educate ourselves about it and seek help while continuing to work.

I also don't know what kind of workplace environment you have. In some workplaces, you can say to a few coworkers or your boss "I've started having some problems with anxiety. I may be acting differently than you're used to." and "I've made an appt. with a doctor to try to find out what's going on."

In other workplaces, that could get you fired or bullied.

Seeing the primary care doctor is important. There can be primarily medical causes that can trigger anxiety and/or depression like thyroid problems, anemia, and blood sugar issues. If it's not something like that, a primary care doctor can prescribe basic psych medication for anxiety or depression.

I'm glad you've posted here. These forums are a good place to get info. and also a safe place to express your frustrations and worries about what's going on.

[vital]

Originally Posted by lexy92

How do I control my anxiety/depression at work. I hate feeling like this at work. I feel like I wanna die I wanna fuxkin kill myself right now everyone and everything is pissing me off. And I cnt leave work how do I go thru the day

Hi lexy. I've been there!

I find that it really helps if you can understand exactly what's happening and why you're having those thoughts and feelings. These notes have an explanation of what might be going on in your head and a very easy recipe for what to do:

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

see especially the part about the "big trick" of depression. This often works amazingly well. Here's what I think is the best general long term plan:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

- vital

[Ruftin]

Hi Lexy. I find that keeping busy at work and giving 100% of myself to the job and those I come in contact with helps take my focus off of me. I actually forget my depression while at work. It meets me in the parking lot when I leave. I'm not sure if this would work for you. I'm also a ball of energy even when depressed though, so.................

[CaliforniaWoods]

Hi Lexy! I don't know what your job's about, but there's a very bad fit I had at my work that comes into my mind.

I went into the bathroom to have some time alone. I remembered I had downloaded a game onto my celphone, so I opened it...and the game was so beautiful to me, that I felt different, seriously...I felt something changed in my brain haha, like some part I haven't used in a while got stimulated (I was in a very deep deppression that lasted almost a year), it was something colorful and pretty, in the middle of my sad grey life. That contrast meant something to me.

So I used a widget on my computer, and I put a little window on my screen that can have anny image that I want, so I can see it, and it's always there (I can't even change my wallpaper at work). Sometimes it doesn't work (like today for me, cause it's a Monday), but I try to find something that'll get me through the day, something really dumb that I don't need but I want.*

I think when I leave from here I'll go get my favorite ice cream flavor, or I'll go buy a new bookmark (I've been doing that a lot...have tons), so I can look forward to that during today.

Hope to hear from you.

[lexy92]

This is awesome. Thank you!!

[Fuzzybear]

[lexy92]

Thxx guysss for ur responses