[Nicoleresati]

I've been seeing a counselor for awhile as talked about in previous posts I've had. For awhile I mean I've seen her a total of 6 times I believe? The last few we have talked about medication. She was the one who suggested it. I don't like my primary doctor so am trying to get into someone who works with him. However, now I'm starting to think I don't need medication..perhaps it's all in my head. I have done this to myself. I'm thinking it's in my head..Maybe everything I told her isn't true, or maybe it's elaborated. Made into something it's not..I'm fine. I am, now I just don't know what to do. I really don't want to go back and see her, but I know I will. I think I'm fine.

I think I should add more to that. Last night I was ready to kill myself. I'm not going to go into detail, but I was hysterical. This morning I knew I was acting strange, and I couldn't control it and it was making me really upset that I couldn't. Now I feel completely fine. I just really think maybe she doesn't understand? I don't know.

Now being 3 hours later. I realize that I'm not as okay as I thought. I'm now unhappy again, full of worry and fear again. Angry again. It was just another mood swing, it just wasn't as quick changing as usual. I was fine and content for a couple hour..now I'm back to normal.

[Pierro]

Hey Nicole, I am glad that you are honest with yourself and to be honest I think all people want it just to go away but we all need help at times.. I think you do need to go back and see your T and tell her how you are really feeling.. There is no shame in needing help as we all do at different times in our lives, maybe for different reasons but we all need a person to talk to at times..Best wishes...

[Fuzzybear]

[Fizzyo]

Hi Nicole, it's hard having so many changes of emotions. Sadly a lot of people live with this sort of turbulence and I'm sorry you're going through it. From what you've said, it sounds as if it is a good idea to continue therapy and medication may help you to feel more stable while you work towards a way forward. I'm glad you think you will go back to your therapist. Sending as much encouragement as I can, be kind to yourself, you deserve it.

[Nicoleresati]

Thank y'all! I don't mean to complain even more, but the last few times I have been to talk to the counselor..medication was brought up. When I feel fine and content I'm against it and her and don't think I need anything..it's all in my head. Usually, shortly after the fine and content changes, and I'm angry, upset, anxious on repeat. I think maybe medication is all a mind ****. I think that maybe someone telling you this will make you feel better, and you having the mindset that it will, it "will". When in reality you won't? I don't know, that's what my head has come up with and I can't seem to shake it.

[vital]

Originally Posted by Nicoleresati

...I think that maybe someone telling you this will make you feel better, and you having the mindset that it will, it "will". When in reality you won't? I don't know, that's what my head has come up with and I can't seem to shake it.

Hi Nicoleresati,

What you say is actually true. When people get better on antidepressants, a big part of it is just the placebo effect.

Many people have the idea that medication and therapy are the two main ways to get better from depression, but, really, there are many things that you can try that have a good chance of working and are great for your health anyway. You have nothing to lose by trying these things and seeing if they work for you. I also think it's really a good idea to check for the many underlying medical problems that can be causing you mental problems. There are many common possibilities for this and they often aren't checked for:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

Also, here are some notes that might help:

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

- vital

[Fizzyo]

Originally Posted by Nicoleresati

Thank y'all! I don't mean to complain even more, but the last few times I have been to talk to the counselor..medication was brought up. When I feel fine and content I'm against it and her and don't think I need anything..it's all in my head. Usually, shortly after the fine and content changes, and I'm angry, upset, anxious on repeat. I think maybe medication is all a mind ****. I think that maybe someone telling you this will make you feel better, and you having the mindset that it will, it "will". When in reality you won't? I don't know, that's what my head has come up with and I can't seem to shake it.

Sometimes we don't always remember how bad things are when we're feeling better, some professionals refer to it as 'insight' if you think that's the case, maybe your judgement about whether medication is a good idea is better when you're experiencing such difficult symptoms. Would it help to write down what you think then and maybe use it to help you when your symptoms are not there. Do you wish to continue living the way you are now? Even when feeling awful? If not, medication may be what you need to kickstart a change for the better. The decision to try medication is possible to change, though you usually have to take it properly for at least a month to know whether it helps and that might mean making yourself stick to the plan even when the symptoms aren't there. If you had a really bad headache that kept coming back and stopped you doing what you need to and it needed regular medicine to keep it away, would you take it of live in bed with crippling headaches? Mental health issues can be just as disabling and we seem to think we need to manage alone.
Just a thought