[PinYoda]

I have hit a low... It is not my first time being this low hence the reason I realize it. I have conversion disorder and I have able to keep the nonepileptic seizures under control.

I have been depressed for the past month or so. But I really hit rock bottom two days ago. I had a car accident five days after an appendectomy last year and I am suffering from PTSD whenever I get into a car. Two days ago we were in town and heading home when it was dark.

I live in a small town so there are a kerjillion deer out at night. I knew that and I closed my eyes because I didn't want to keep anticipating the worst. (I was not driving by the way) A few minutes later my sister slams on the brakes and it was pure miracle that we didn't hit the deer.

It was literally right beside the car. It rubbed against the car as we drove past it. My brain could not handle the high emotions which led me into a nonepileptic seizure. Lasted about 20 minutes. I'm still extremely sore and have a migraine.

That incident has fed my depression and now I'm feeling stuck once again.

[francisR]

hi Pinyoda

That you have your seizures under control is a real plus! And I am sorry that the accident has given you PTSD. Are you seeing a therapist for that? Perhaps there is medication that could help also?
What happened to you two days ago would shock anybody.
There is a sort of radical approach you could take which is simply getting into the car when it is parked at home and letting all of the anxious feelings come. Don't try to get rid of them but simply say to yourself I am experiencing them and then watch them as they go out of your mind and you can keep doing that till they stop which they will. Also, even when doing that you can start to notice things in your environment which would help to distract your mind and lessen the intensity of the feelings. I really hope and pray this will improve for you in the future. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis

[Fizzyo]

Hi pinyoda, sounds like, on average, you're doing a pretty good job. Sorry it's got harder for you recently. You have got better before, so you can do it again. Hang on in there.