[Nicoleresati]

I've had quick changing mood swings for quite some time now. They can change by the minute or hour..during the day if I keep distracted I'm usually content, but if I'm not then my thinking is Erratic and I get all worked up..especially if I'm alone. I get panicky and agitated. I have had some paranoia about certain people and with last weeks events it's become even worse. I think that my counselor is out to get me and I think my family is lying to me, listening to everything I say, stalking me. I just really am uncertain about how I feel. Last week I was really interested in my counselor and just wanted her to tell me I was okay, and this week I just want to hurt her for everything she has done, but I still want her to want me. It's that way with a lot of people. I also feel as if my mind is leaving me..my future plans are fading and I'm forgetting conversations and peoples faces quickly after I last see or talk with them. I don't know what to do, I'm really craving a drink and some sleep. I'd like to just end it all, give up. I'm tired of going at it with myself, all day.

I get myself all worked up and then question if I'm doing it to myself? If I can't get out of my self pity long enough to feel better?

[francisR]

hi Nicole

If you are having rapid mood swings. perhaps you really do need a good mood stabilizer and seeing the psychiatrist about this would be best.
With regard to the feelings of paranoia. You know your family members, and that they are not out to get you because you know from the type of people they are that they are caring and wish you well. And reminding yourself of this when you have these thoughts will give you the reality check. you need to help.
Definitely suicide is not the answer it would totally destroy the lives of your family who would never recover from the bad feelings and you really don't want to do that.

Having a consuming passion such as a charitable cause, or something that fired you up in earlier times would always give you a reason to go on and to have a meaningful life. Try to keep your mind busy doing things, especially enjoyable ones to take the focus away from feeling bad. I hope and pray you feel much better soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis

[CANDC]

Nicoleresati, I understand what you mean about quick mood swings. Seeing a psychiatrist may be a necessary step on the way. You speak of thoughts of doing harm to yourself or others. If these are things you are actively planning to act on, the need for a psychiatrist to do a diagnosis and suggested treatment plan is even more urgent.

It sounds like you may not be sleeping well. The importance of 7-8 hours sleep per night can make a big difference. 14 Strategies for Sleeping Better | Psych Central

For me lifestyle changes fit big in my recovery hopes, but do not replace professional care especially when dark thoughts are dominating the mind.

I have to watch what I eat because foods I eat can stabilize my moods or exaggerate them. A high protein low carb diet with snacks or meals every 3-4 hours will over time reduce my swings. I also avoid alcohol and recreational drugs because those can really increase depression.

Other lifestyle changes that help me are doing yoga, exercises, mindfulness, calm music, and being active on Psych Central.

[Fizzyo]

I'm sorry you are having all these troubles. I see that you received some good advice and I am NOT going to repeat it. I would like to stress the importance of having your medications reviewed and their potentials for side effects. Before doctors add new ones the old one should always be reviewed. I wish you luck in your journey