[lima01]

I don't know yet , I don't like to see others in worse trouble than me so that makes me sad . I am consumed by my own troubles .
I have lurked at the success stories but I guess the magic cure is not there . Forgive me but I'm just ranting . We all want a good quick fix , today I hid again from my problems , That makes two days of wasteful time feeling sorry for myself . Not facing the problem is not going to make it go away . But facing it is fearsome too . Lets face it I'm sick and in a nervous breakdown . Maybe the increased meds will calm me some , but meds scare me too .
I hate this state of existence its not living its hell . I fear I will burn what support people that I have by my whining and ranting . I just told my brother not to come 700 miles to be with me at this time because I don't want him to see me this way . Its a double edge sword it cuts both ways , I care for him but I don't want him to see me at my worst . We survived a year ago burying our mother but this is something else .

[CANDC]

Hi lima. Sorry you are suffering from depression from the loss of your mother. That must be hard to cope with.

The Anxiety Support Chat is 8PM EST EDT on Friday night. Lots of supporting people there.

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[Fizzyo]

Sorry you're struggling so much, living with so much pain. You're right, there are few easy answers but there is hope. People can and do live well with, or even after depression.
If your brother cares about you, he will want to help, even over the phone. He may be willing to read and educate himself about depression, with this understanding, he is less likely to view you as 'whining'. It sounds like he wants to help, even if it's only over the phone. Pushing him away if he really cares is, in my view unlikely to help either of you.

Best wishes as you decide what is right for you and your brother. ❤️

[lima01]

I stopped my brother from coming on that long needless trip . In the end he was greatful as he doesn't travel well . I relieved him that he could not help me by traveling 700 miles for no results . His wife wuold have sufferd greatly . I alone bear the burden of getting well and this is not the movies with all happy endings . Down today- as I have overburdened my support system bad last night . My messed up mind went too many places it should not have . Broken links at this point are very bad for us all.

[Fizzyo]