[lima01]

I don't want them but I keep going there, i have studied ways and stuff .I don't want to think like that . It will hurt the people I care about in many ways . I try to get mind to stop punishing me but it is not working. try to meditate and get the mind to obey and stop thinking that way . I try to get enough sleep but the days are bad and I have talked to friends until I am burning them up . Nothing is working very well . I am in my seventh week of this nervous break down my vibrating nervous system doesn't let up even with some meds . I worked very hard physically in the first two weeks but that just burn't me out and took me down . Now everything overwhelms me . I try to hide out somedays and that backfires and I feel very guilty not leaving my room. I increased my meds is there any time frame I can look forward to. Desperate !

[waterknob1234]

Hi lima. Have you seen a pdoc or a therapist? Don't sit alone. Do seek out help. You deserve to feel better, for yourself and your loved ones. You deserve to have a life outside of your room. I have had too many days when I did not feel like leaving my house so I understand. Exercise helps in small amounts, what your body can handle. Give yourself a "pat on the back" for each thing you do or accomplish no matter how small. Give yourself that "pat on the back for leaving the bed or house.

I hope for you to feel better soon.

[Fuzzybear]

[Fizzyo]

Hi Lima, sorry things feel so desperate! If you're on prescribed medication, it takes a few weeks to take effect. Sometimes I notice a difference in a couple of weeks, sometimes it takes two or so more. It sounds like you have already survived some of that time so please hang on in there if you can. I really long for you to feel some relief, I know it's not as easy as that sometimes. However, when you're at your very worst, there's only one way to go, and that's at least a bit better. The most destructive thoughts can recede .....

What else can I send but these inadequate words, hoping the light at the end of this tunnel grows into something better and easier to live with.

❤️❤️

[lima01]

I have survived to this point , increased meds, hard physical labor to burn off nervousness . I don't know about tomorrow ,I hate to see dawn after the meds , another day to face .
Calmed down some but I feel i could fall back at anytime, rough decisions ahead , can I make good ones ? Horrible scenes to face anyway . Can I do it, I really don't know. The things I should be doing are haunting me too. I know I'm wearimg out my suppport network at the same time. Some meds have helped I'm sure but I feel like I'm fragile and could crack at anytime .

[Bird Feeder]

I know that some people will advise against this but I have found that the only thing that helps my self destructive thoughts is ECT. I have been taking it for two years now and it is the only thing that helps me. I am one of the lucky ones I guess because I have no side effects like memory loss. I hope you are under the care of a pdoc and/or therapist. A pdoc for medication.

[Fizzyo]