[passionfruit3]

A lot of people feel my personality is like jekly and hyde out in the world im a poet im described as warm helpful and sensitive but in hospital i change i hit my head violently against walls and bed rails i scratch until i bleed i try and climb everything i starve and dehydrated myself.my refusal to listen has got me in trouble many times and cause i come to the hospital so much then act out its seen as attention seeking behavior. But honestly I don't think i can help it i don't like being confined it makes me crazy.like solitary confinement. A place deticated to keeping me safe makes me not want to be safe it makes me want to hurt myself. it makes no sense that i come there they say .well yeah it does cause now i made a mistake and if i don't come to your er where you abuse me and once tried to throw my clothes out then i might die were someone will be traumatized finding my body

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Passionfruit3, a lot of clients find hospitals trigger them. Whether it is the sterile germ free environment, the UV lighting, the loss of sense depravation, what ever it does trigger people. You feel institutionalized and it makes one go bizerk. I do feel for you. So if you know you are going to end up there, is there any visualization you can do to help yourself? Or can you request plants or something living around you to feel more grounded? It is a thought. Most people in the medical profession get on auto pilot that they pretty much move without thinking. I thank you for the candor to post this. I do believe you make people aware of the conditions and how to better improve them. I wish you well. tc

[Fizzyo]