[Publick]

This is my second post and I still feel fed up of life. I am diagnosed with PTSD. I'm super lazy like most people are but the only difference is that I don't do anything about it. I feel bored and stressed with school, home life and just everyday thoughts.

I feel angry, sad and worried about my life and how its gonna turn out if I continue to over sleep, miss lessons and not study. I ain't in secondary school where I could put in little effort to pass but I'm in college which requires studying, good punctuality and attendance but every morning I feel like ***** and depressed and I just dont want to do this anymore, I don't want a sh*tty job but a good job that I enjoy, but I don't want to face reality and actually work soo hard that I feel restless everyday.

Possible trigger:

I just want to end my life, but I can't bring myself to it.

I know time will heal this wound but I don't have the time right now and won't have anymore later in life. I don't know what to do.

[vital]

Originally Posted by Publick

This is my second post and I still feel fed up of life. I am diagnosed with PTSD. I'm super lazy like most people are but the only difference is that I don't do anything about it. I feel bored and stressed with school, home life and just everyday thoughts.

I feel angry, sad and worried about my life and how its gonna turn out if I continue to over sleep, miss lessons and not study. I ain't in secondary school where I could put in little effort to pass but I'm in college which requires studying, good punctuality and attendance but every morning I feel like ***** and depressed and I just dont want to do this anymore, I don't want a sh*tty job but a good job that I enjoy, but I don't want to face reality and actually work soo hard that I feel restless everyday.

Possible trigger:

I just want to end my life, but I can't bring myself to it.

I know time will heal this wound but I don't have the time right now and won't have anymore later in life. I don't know what to do.

Hey Publick,

Try what helped Freewilled

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4715237-post156.html

It really works. These notes may help

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB/BA.pdf

- vital

[Rohag]

Hello, Publick.

Originally Posted by Publick

...even if I get really good advice the motivation and the will to live will just disappear moments later.

That's familiar to me, too.

You didn't get to where you are being lazy, and I suspect true "laziness" is not the problem now. The PTSD and its concomitants may be short-circuiting your abilities to self-motivate. It is also possible a medical issue may be present.

Does your current school offer medical and counselling services? Some school office needs to know about your PTSD diagnosis.

Please make yourself at home.

[Fizzyo]

I agree with Rohag, it's generally better to be up front with college so they may be able to support you, they can't if they don't know. They may be able to signpost you to extra support or counselling. If you don't ask, it can't happen.

[Publick]

Thnks for the hugs, since its the weekend I'll tell them tomorrow

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[emijec]

Publick,

I'm sorry that depression is affecting your routine. Do you have an academic counselor? I think that if you speak with that person they might be able to help you get services and also deal with your academic schedule. I know one hiccup and you can get stuck in probationary status which is not good for your transcript. Are there any TAs you can talk to about getting deadline extensions, or anything like that?

[emijec]

oh, you can also see if you can get a leave of absence so you can tackle depression in the meantime. just an idea.