[jman197]

Another year is about to end and I feel like I always do this time of year. My birthday is coming up soon and this year I had plans that it would be different. I will be turning twenty-one and yet everything just backfired on me once again. I just figured that it's been five years since my life fell apart the first time and three years since the second time, that maybe with help this year I could be good. I actually felt ready let go of pain this year. But no I end up getting stabbed in the back. I thought I was doing good for this year but then the pain came up as Christmas got brought up and this year I just dont feel like trying to lie to myself and everyone around me. It makes me wonder why I can't just move on from my past and every little betrayal that happens. Like I said another year is coming to an end and I wonder where I truely stand because I don't know anymore.

[12AM]

I can relate Jman, about this time of year and being betrayed. For the betrayal, I try to convince myself that it wasn’t my fault. Even if it was my fault for putting my trust to those kinds of people, I’d try to forgive myself. As for this time of year, idk why but I always feel awful on December. I believe there’s some kind of trauma but I couldn’t remember what. I am sorry you have a rough time now, I just come here to give u a hug

[Fuzzybear]

[Fizzyo]

I felt a lot like this in the run up to my birthday too I delayed forming a final opinion about what I should do until after it had passed and things weren't good afterwards, but they didn't seem as bad as the run up to it so waiting was a helpful thing to do.I hope the same works for you.

[Findingjoy1795]

Well. I don't have any wisdom, but I am here to tell you you're not alone.
Strangely enough, I'm also turning 21 next month and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety 5 years ago. The end of the year is always tough, because (at least for me), it's always full of a lot of reflection. Another year has passed? What happened this year? Why do I feel like I'm worse off than when it started? Am I making progress? Is life always going to be this way?
I don't know about the betrayal piece, but I certainly hope you can find some peace.
And if you need someone to talk to, the door is open.