[Teiah]

Just the title...
I have no reasons, no hope, everything that ive tried and others have tried to make me feel better fails just so miserably. I have no one, no happiness, no prospects, no money, no reason, no nothing.... just nothing... I need help but nothing ever helps...I hate myself so entirely I dont even want this person I hate so much to get better, to ever feel anything besides pain.... I just cant do it... I dont know what to do... what do i do when nothing helps? And the only person that ever helped cant stand you anymore...

what do you do when you just want to die, because thats all there is to look forward to?

theres is no hope, no better days ahead, things only ever get worse. and when im fool enough to hope or try, life bashes my brains in, making sure that I never am stupid enough to do that again unless I want things to be ruined beyond repair, like things do every single time... im just so done.... what can i do...? theres nothing to do... everyone says just make it through today and tomorrow will be better. thats the biggest lie ever, even when you hope with all your heart and convince yourself things will be better, it just proves you wrong in ever horrible, painful way.

People always tell me you cant do anything until you feel better, but if you never feel better, if you spend every moment of every day trying, and failing to cope, you'll just waste your entire life away... its alljust useless, hopeless.... theres nothing to do... nothing.... i have nothing...

All I have is depression...

[qwerty68]

If you are suicidal the best thing you can do is go to an ER if you have nowhere else to go, or go to your pdoc. Just go, please. Right now. Please.

There are lots of things you can do to help you get through it, if you want I can share how I deal with my longstanding depression, but please go get seen now.

Are you seeing a pdoc and on meds?

Teiah, you call your local church and talk to a minister how you feel. He can pray with you, listen and give you spiritual counsel. It helps and it does work. There is help there, reach out and recieve it. (((hugs))) tc

[elevatedsoul]

im right there with you... i have absolute 0... the only thing i have is the blood i carry...
i have nothing at all - and if my parents were to die tonight - i probably would die tomorow because i can't provide for myself at all.. it is completely utterly overwhelming...
but i just try not to think... i think too much... i end up separating my thoughts... or dissociating.. im not really sure how i handle any of this... all i know is i cant remember 30 seconds ago, i forget everything... i hardly ever know what day it is... sometimes the months... i have even forgotten what year it was before... but i think my mind maybe doing this because im completely at my wits ends and this may be an emergency way to cope with extreme stress...
i tend to self medicate - i dont enjoy it like people would think i do - i just need to feel something different - any kind of relief and i try to take the less damaging routes... sometimes drugs are safer than selfharm... vice versa...
the only thing we can do is to keep fighting... try to live with these demons... i refuse to let the world take the last thing i have from me... my life... it wont beat me...

you can try religion, it helps a lot of people... i used to be religious, my mother was a preacher and everything... but i fell out ... im just spiritual now...
im fine though... i hold the keys to this world right now... to stay in it or to walk out..
just gonna prove to myself that life can be a good thing... i have to prove to myself that ...

please stay strong... you are important no matter how much this illness tries to tell you otherwise...

[Fuzzybear]

[DesigningWoman]

You cry out for help. And you scream as long as it takes to get it.
If it means calling your pdoc or going to the emergency room at a hospital that has a psych unit, you do it. You honestly tell how horrible you feel and how bad it has gotten. You are worth fighting for but you need help in this battle.

[Aracnae]

Do you have someone you can talk to honestly? Just one good friend can make a huge difference. You don't have nothing, you have people, and whether you know it or not, they probably care about you. You also have a ton of life, and a lot to experience. Think ahead to that thing you haven't done that you really want to do, not like a possession you want to have, but an experience or a thing you want to finish. That will take your mind off of what you have and don't have. I hope you're doing better, hugs!