[adampeps]

Sorry in advance for the long post.

I've had a few depression bouts in my life so I believe it is situational. This bout started of with more anxiety and fear about finances. Despite feeling much better about that and working things out, I still remain depressed.

I thought I was getting better as I was doing very well at nights. I was actually looking forward to this past weekend as we had a b-day party to go to for our daughters friend (felt I could get out and see some people) and I was going to my Dads and thought it would be a good opportunity to talk finances, feel better, etc. However both things didn't make me feel as good as I had hoped.

I've really struggled today. Taking my daughter sliding felt I wasn't there having fun, can't eat our favorite Sunday supper, tasks feel hard to do, not in a good mood tonight, etc.

I'm really struggling this depression episode as i've got a family that depends on me. I feel like I am not there.

I started my Zoloft again last week (I had been weaning off symptom free for the past year down to once every four days) but found myself more anxious so I stopped it for a couple of days, took another 50mg Friday and nothing since then. I'm not sure if that fact that I am yo-yoing with the meds is making me go like this.

Anyway, i'm frustrated as I can't have bad full days. Is this all part of the recovery (i.e. some bad days some good)? I can't see my doctor until next Wednesday but think I should just do 50mg/day until I see him. That should be ok right?

Sorry all. Thanks,
Adam

[dexter]

Adam can you give the doctor a call tomorrow to ask his advice regarding the meds, to hold you until you see him on Wednesday?

[kecanoe]

Yo-yoing meds can make you feel worse. I agree that calling pdoc might be best

[Fizzyo]

I agree, these meds work best by building up a constant level in your body. Yo-yoing can do horrible things to how you feel.
Some people maintain themselves and stay well on just a very low dose. I would also recommend taking the 50 mg until you see your doctor. When more settled, you should be able to wean down again like you did before.
I'm very slow weaning off some antidepressants, and might even need to use half the smallest tablets of this one at the end of the process, rather than whole ones with this med. Sometimes doctors are a little optimistic about how long the process takes.

Good luck and hang on in there. You did it before, so can do it again.