That's it. College has managed to destroy the last particles of hope I had. I was clinging on the stupid dream of getting my bachelor and getting away from my home country, but even this has proved to be impossible. I don't know why, really. I'm not stupid, no. It's more like... teachers seem to hate me. I'm getting grades out of nowhere, completely not matching the work I provided, and I can't complain, cause I have no rights in this screwed up place.
Furthermore, I'm beggining to suspect that I'm invisible, somehow. A lot of things happened this year, and I'm 96% sure that I'm somehow invisible. People seems to avoid contact with me, even when they barely know me. Can't explain why.
God, my head hurts, it's going to burst ! I'm tired, and I'm writing this knowing clearly that nothing will get better. I won't even get comfort from writing this. Pathetic, hein ?

[basicgoodness]

I'm sorry that you are feeling so badly. There is always hope as long as you are alive. Hang in there.

[dexter]

Doesn't sound pathetic Kamiomi, sounds like the way depression colors our experience of reality... I often feel the same way. Do you have anyone you can call for help or support?

Originally Posted by dexter

Doesn't sound pathetic Kamiomi, sounds like the way depression colors our experience of reality... I often feel the same way. Do you have anyone you can call for help or support?

No.
I don't think it's depression. It's just an objective assessment of the situation.

[wasteofcarbon]

Originally Posted by Kamiomi

No.
I don't think it's depression. It's just an objective assessment of the situation.

Exactly.