[introspectiveme]

I want to disappear or hide in a cave underneath the earth's surface somewhere.... or move to another planet and live all by myself.... away from people. I have had it with people, and their relentless need to judge and hurt other people. My appearance is like a big bull's eye to people around me, sometimes i think i'm getting along with my 'friends' and they've gotten used to my appearance (They know me for 3 years now), until they have something hurtful to say to me. Maybe they think it's not a big deal to joke about, but they DON'T know how it makes me feel.

I don't have anyone to talk to, or comfort me. My mother freaks out when I show any signs of wanting some comfort from her, she'd rather I keep quiet than tell her about my depression, because in her world, it's not possible for me to be depressed.

I am trying to do my best to stay healthy, fix myself and ignore what others have to say, but it's a neverending, unrelenting battle. I've been bullied all myself in some way or form, and it just never stops for me.

[JADEDAJ]

Originally Posted by introspectiveme

I want to disappear or hide in a cave underneath the earth's surface somewhere.... or move to another planet and live all by myself.... away from people. I have had it with people, and their relentless need to judge and hurt other people. My appearance is like a big bull's eye to people around me, sometimes i think i'm getting along with my 'friends' and they've gotten used to my appearance (They know me for 3 years now), until they have something hurtful to say to me. Maybe they think it's not a big deal to joke about, but they DON'T know how it makes me feel.

I don't have anyone to talk to, or comfort me. My mother freaks out when I show any signs of wanting some comfort from her, she'd rather I keep quiet than tell her about my depression, because in her world, it's not possible for me to be depressed.

I am trying to do my best to stay healthy, fix myself and ignore what others have to say, but it's a neverending, unrelenting battle. I've been bullied all myself in some way or form, and it just never stops for me.

Hi there introspectiveme, I can relate to feeling like there is no one to turn to when you are feeling depressed. I went through a similar thing with my father. You may never be able to get through to your mother, but there are people on here (LIKE ME =] who can relate to you and would be happy to listen to whatever you want to get off of your chest. If you're ever interested, you are more than welcome to message me. I would love to talk to someone who can understand my depression.

[wasteofcarbon]

Welcome to the club.

[introspectiveme]

Originally Posted by JADEDAJ

Hi there introspectiveme, I can relate to feeling like there is no one to turn to when you are feeling depressed. I went through a similar thing with my father. You may never be able to get through to your mother, but there are people on here (LIKE ME =] who can relate to you and would be happy to listen to whatever you want to get off of your chest. If you're ever interested, you are more than welcome to message me. I would love to talk to someone who can understand my depression.

Thank you, I'd like to talk to you as well