[ichiaioujo]

I've been super depressed lately, I've been thinking that death is the only cure, I've even tried it a few times b4 but someone must want me here so *shrug*, I've just been worried I might be inclined to make another attempt...I'm sure not careful its like I'm numb and don't care what happens to me.

everything is just overwhelming for me right now, My boyfriend has left the country for two months which I think was the last straw. He was like one of the reason I wake up in the morning, something I had to look forward to besides my dog ('.')

I'm just so gloomy but I pretend like i'm ok around my friends and family b/c they aren't any help. It's like I can't really depend on anyone. I'm always available for other ppl but when I need someone I'm left alone...I'm always alone, I always feel like such a burden.

I wish there was a place I could get away to for awhile, kind of like the place they made me go my last two suicide attempts it really helped to just escape from the world for a week or so...only at some point I have to face whats waiting for me

are there places like that?

[Direction]

First Welcome...I'm sorry you are going through such a rough time...Sounds like you were in a hospital before when you feel this way...sounds like with the language you are using it would be a good time to call your pdoc or T ... If you can't get a hold of them...probably a good idea to go to the hospital...what do you think...

Also, you may want to have the trigger icon the red circle with an "x" through it so others who may be sensative to the words you use will stay away and be safe...I'll see if I can get that added...Ok?

[Direction]

P.S. there are a lot of support people here at PC...

<font color="blue"> </font> I/we want you to know we are here for you, your not alone. I'm new here at this forum also, PC is the best thing I found out here, the people here truly care no BS..

If you think no one cares, we all do here...................

[ichiaioujo]

oh sorry, about the triggers...

thanks for advice...I don't understand about what do I do at the hospital?

[Direction]

"what do I do at the hospital"...adjust meds if necessary...have a safe environment...group activities...probably learn some coping strategies...have time to get yourself ready to face the outside world when you come out...

[stefano]

You sound like a young person... well, at least put it this way: you can quietly give yourself more years, trust the doctors and see what happens.
This is not the silly "you still have all your life to live" thing. I just mean that you have a solid reason to take it easy, so do it.

The best of luck