Don't really know what's going on or why I am feeling this way. But I truly feel like ****. I'm really trying to hold it together and keep going but it is so hard right now.

The only way I feel I can get through this day is by getting drunk and self harming. Yes, I know, not good coping mechanisms. But nothing else is working. And I know in the long run it will just make things worse, but I need some way to release some of this pressure. I need to calm things down a bit.

Possible trigger:

I'm suicidal. Trying really hard not to act on it, but thats becoming harder and harder

I just can't do this anymore

[basicgoodness]

I do feel for you. Sometimes all I can do is lie down and tell myself, out loud, that everything is going to be OK, that I will protect the frightened child within, that I will never abandon him. I just keep saying that over and over until I start to calm down. I hope you feel better soon.

[Fuzzybear]

How do you tell yourself it will be ok if you don't believe it?