[JohnCrow]

Here I am, once again wallowing in misery. I don't know what to do, I really don't

It is so bad now my chest hurts, my stomach is churning. I was feeling much better, I thought I got a really good job. But then nothing. Which makes the situation worse, much worse. I remember reading once saying that a man without hope is a man without fear. I got just enough hope to raise the possibility of success, only to have it repeatedly dashed. I don't know why I bother, sustaining hope, feeling hope. I read wil Wheaton's article about depression. It was great if you have steady income, a love life, and real hope. What if you have none of those, no prospects of any, and pain. I am not suicidal simply because, considering my record, I would mess that up too. I just don't know what to do all I know for certain is that if I could not be, that would be okay.

Hi John, I have no idea what to say except I was, not that long ago, feeling that depressed or I imagine I did. I didn't want to be here anymore either. I do know what it's like, waking up every morning with such dread and anxiety and imagining things about not having to wake up anymore. I'm sorry it hurts so much, I wish there was at least some light of hope in your life. You have us here to turn to. I've seen you here and have read your posts which I think show's great intelligence and you have a way of explaining things that some of us don't. I hope you will find some comfort today in something. Winter is back today, but it is looking like the weather will be nicer soon, and getting out just to people watch somewhere may help. Sorry about the job loss as well.

[Fizzyo]

Hi John,

I'm so sorry about your job loss. It was a real body blow!

Words seem inadequate at a time like this.

I will be thinking about you, I know that's not much, but I really feel for you.

[Fuzzybear]

[Fuzzybear]

I know this isn't much (or anything at all)... I don't judge posts as " whining"
If nothing else, some others here will relate.
Thanks for posting

gosh, that really is a shame. I take solace in the fact winter will soon be over - the days are getting longer and warmer. Do you get out at all much? Even just for a walk around the block. I hate getting myself to do it but usually feel much better once I've done so. Get a good book on CBT too - it provided me some relief