Needing Daily Support

Does anyone else feel like they need daily help? I can't live every day with my thoughts and starving myself and my OCD. I really need daily help but it's just not there. If it wasn't for my wife I'd be living on a park bench :-(

When my depression gets really bad, the self-criticism gets extreme and actually affects my productivity at my job, affects my personal relationships, and my relationship with myself. I need constant, external confirmation and reassurance that what I'm doing is okay, if this is good enough, or making sure I'm not wrong. My depression tells me that everything I'm doing is wrong and that i am ugly and I'm too fat. You're not perfect, you're nothing. I know it lies, but my true voice never seems to be loud enough.

If it were not for my boyfriend, I know I would not be where I am today. I would have never recovered from rock bottom. I would have stayed down there along with empty beer and pill bottles. He is my support.

It's okay to need help. Just make sure she knows you appreciate her.

i cant take care of myself... i know that... and sometimes i do what i can not to take care of myself... the will is just not there :/
wish i could make you feel better...

Sorry you're struggling so much. Even more sorry there are no easy answers.

Remember though, you can get a kind of help here every day. That really helps me keep going. Don't forget you can PM anyone from Community Liaison.

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Thanks everyone. I feel bad that I've been mentally ill for 25years now and this particular episode has lasted almost 4 years now. I feel so guilty and ashamed constantly visiting my psychiatrist and psychologist saying nothing is getting any better, it's so embarrassing and shaming, like I'm failing treatment, the monthly visits have become a massive strain to me. Add to that the fact I think everyone hates me and the daily thoughts my wife is about to leave me because I'm such a burden and failure and then the constant obsessing and starving myself :-( It's just hell.