[guiltier65]

My t keeps telling me that I am a high functioning borderline. I don't feel high functioning, I hurt.... I am sleeping too much and thoughts of cutting and drinking are swirling around in my mind. Am I high functioning because I know the dangers of my choices? It doesn't matter, I still fight the same battles. sometimes I lose and sometimes i win a small skirmish. I manage to sit in my office each day and act like I'm ok, but the truth is I sleep 2 to 3 hours in the evening , then I get up and go to bed. I set my alarm for 5 but don't get up until 6:15. I feel alone. I can say the right words to others, but inside my own mind, i hear nothing but the lies that i'm worthless, alone, and the battle is not worth fighting. I know that i am sinking again, but i don't know how to stop the spiral.

[Fizzyo]

http://www.wired.com/wp-content/uplo.../10/cathug.jpg

I hope the link works, I don't know how to import pictures.

[kecanoe]

They tell me I am high functioning also. And I am here to tell you that being high functioning doesn't mean that everything is ok. It doesn't mean that I don't hurt. It doesn't mean that I don't suffer. It just means that I am good at faking it and keeping going. High functioning is all about what shows on the outside.

I am sorry you are suffering.

[elevatedsoul]

i was told high functioning once... or twice...
not sure what it really means... i just always figured that it meant i function even with severe chronic impairments...

for fizzyo


just type "[ img] in front of the image link and [/img ]" at the end for it to show the image

[JohnCrow]

I am not high functioning but I can play one in public