[Ghost5]

I don't want to moan but by God, this is tough. I just can't take another 10,20 or 30 or even 40years till I'm old and naturally dying. It's a never ending daily war with my own head, the heaviness and pressure on my shoulders, the feeling like my brains going to explode, the never ending stress even though there's nothing to be stressed about, the guilt over nothing,the ruined career, the constant, insistent negative thoughts. Nothing gives me relief, not meds, not CBT, nothing. Just an endless war with myself and self destruction drive.

[dexter]

Hello Ghost I know it is tough. Don't regret "moaning" this is the place where people understand. Sometimes just having someone that understands and feels your pain can help a little bit if only for a moment. Hoping you find some solutions that work and in the meantime we are here.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((( Ghost )))))))))
I know, it sucks

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Ghost5

It's a never ending daily war with my own head

That's an excellent way to express something terrible.

[dexter]

Originally Posted by Ghost5

It's a never ending daily war with my own head,.

At our first session my new T told me there's a battle between light and dark going on inside of me.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Rohag

That's an excellent way to express something terrible.