so it's just dawned on me that, in my last 10 years of life, nothing's changed for me- at least not for the better.

not entirely sure why i'm thinking about the last 10 years (especially on such a random day like today), but i just am

and it sucks knowing that my life has not improved in the slightest.

not just a little bit of progress

just wanted to post this- give me a place to vent

[Ocean Swimmer]

I don't know how old you are, but you know how to use Internet. And type.
Make a list of what you are grateful for: can see( many are blind )
And stuff like that.
Listen to Louise Hay.

[Skeezyks]

Hello shattered sanity: Yes... I sometimes have a similar experience. All of a sudden, for no apparent reason, my consciousness is accosted by visions of the sheer horror, loss & destruction of my life (most of which I perpetrated myself... life among the ruins...) It can feel like a monstrous dark wave engulfing me. I have adopted a practice of trying to lean into it... smile to it & breath into it. I send warm thoughts your way with the hope that you are able to find, within yourself, the ability to dwell in deep peace...

[Fizzyo]

Sorry you're feeling hopeless. We're here.

You're here for us. That has to count for something.

It does in my book!

I know that is little consolation to you so