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My birthday is in 10 days, and it's another milestone of failure. I will be 34, and will have the wonderful following items:
- never had sex (never had any intimacy period) - still financially dependent (yes I work but bills etc) - still painfully introverted - have interests that aren't interesting to people (studying Richard Nixon, fascination with electoral processes, finding truly weird stories, etc) - screw up something every day or choose to be an idiot I know my mother won't want me to say it, but I wish I was never born. I can only talk to my therapist about item #1 on this list because it's so intimate and degrading. I have so much pain & anxiety that even meds aren't helping. I pray for it to end immediately. I feel like I have one year to fix this or else I have no choice but to leave this world and make it better for everyone on the whole.
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"Start perfect, get better every day" Good for absolutely nothing & doing even less Reality is not realistic Last edited by ak482; Mar 26, 2016 at 01:36 AM. Reason: More thoughts |
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i dunno if it make you feel any better..
probably not but i have never been intimate with anyone either... in any kind of way, it scares me a little... but i guess i just have trust issues :/ i would like a first kiss some day, but i would probably wreck that in some horrible way ![]() it does make you feel a little insignificant... but it doesnt mean the world would be better off without you... being introverted is tough, but it doesnt mean we are less than... look at this ( i dont know much about famous actors and stuff because im not real big on that kind of stuff but i guess this is accurate..?) 30 Famous Introverts - Actors, Actresses, Talk Show Hosts Famous Introverted Actresses Candice Bergen, actress, writer, photographer Ingrid Bergman, actress Ellen Burstyn, actress Glenn Close, actress Audrey Hepburn, actress Helen Hunt, actress Diane Keaton, actress Grace Kelly, actress Jessica Lange, actress Laura Linney, actress Gwyneth Paltrow, actress Michelle Pfeiffer, actress Julia Roberts, actress Meg Ryan, actress Meryl Streep, actress Famous Introverts – Actors Clint Eastwood, actor/director Harrison Ford, actor Tom Hanks, actor Sir Alfred Hitchcock, film director Jack Lemmon, late actor Bill Macy, actor Steve Martin, all around talented guy Noah Wiley, actor Other Famous Introverts Johnny Carson, former Tonight Show host Jane Clayson, host of CBS Morning Show Matt Lauer, co-host on the Today Show David Letterman, host of the David Letterman Show Diane Sawyer, co-host of ABC’s Good Morning America Barbara Walters, host of 20/20
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Happy Birthday in advance. I think someone who studies Richard Nixon rather interesting. I would probably ask you if you know everything about Watergate because I was there when all that came down but not paying much attention because I was young and more interested in sex and how I could make that happen. It sounds like you are interested in intimacy...so isn't that a good sign? Better than apathy. If you have someone to be dependent on if you need help financially, that is also good. Truly weird stories...doesn't everyone love them? Daily screw ups...at least you know you make them. What annoys me is when people don't know they have screwed up. I would say if you check out early the world would be a bit less colorful. I will contact you 10 days before my birthday with my sad list so you can help me dispute it. I think I must be much more narcissistic than you because I just buy myself gifts on my birthday. This year...I plan on vanilla musk perfume from The Body Shop. I am not trying to make light of your pain. I know so very well how you feel. I wish someone would come along and tell me that the world would be a little less colorful if I check out early. I also know about goals...the major one being...I have one year to fix this. I know that one well. So...yeah...you are are both depressed and hopeless...but also hopeful. Maybe this year write a letter to your future self. That was something I thought of doing. Sometimes we have to keep living for no other reason but to honor the fact there is a future self out there. Hugs and best wishes.
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I remember once in my long life it turned the new year and I said I absolutely had to meet someone and become intimate with them within the year. I didn't meet anyone for...about eleven years! Now that's in the past and I am like, sex, meh, if it happens it happens. It's weird that wishing on it won't make it happen. But working on your own life makes it fit into the picture when it does happen. Wishing everyone first kisses! Yes. But in their own time, because that's how they work anyway, the little devils...I mean...angels!
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birthdays are always tough for me.
just 1 big guilt trip so sorry about how you're feeling.. just know that everyone is diffrent, and if we all liked the same stuff- life would be so boring and weird stories can be fun (especially news stories) shocking sometimes to read what people do |
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I did not have sex till I was 37 married for 11 years no intimacy since.52 now
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i dont celebrate birthdays or holidays...
whats the difference from any other day...
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I am in major financial crisis right now
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Financial crisis or not, find a way to treat yourself on your day . . . Baskin Robbins offers you a free birthday scoop (mint chocolate, perhaps?), watch a funny video, check out a new Nixon book at the library, feed the ducks. Many museums offer free admission midweek. Or,maybe do something nice for your mom if the relationship is good.
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