[Onward2wards]

That's right, it's mah birfday ....

... and going over some old posts of mine I realize ... I'm as stuck today as I have been for a long, long time. Things I want to change are not changing, and I'm pretty fed up. Not fed up enough to get off my rear and change things apparently, just fed up enough to sit here in a mood of passive resignation and mild, grinding annoyance at it all, while staring at the wall. Happy blahday to me.

I'm not looking for hugs. I want to pull my issues out of my head and stomp them into submission once and for all. I'm sorta numb, sorta angry, but mostly just want to eat something sweet and go back to bed.

[dexter]

I will join you in stomping on everything negative for your birthday. Stomping party, right here. Hope things improve for you... AND, sometimes you are not looking for hugs, but you find them anyway. {{{{{Onward}}}}}

Well... I'm giving you a hug anyway. If you don't already know then I'll tell you, (eating something sweet and) going back to bed is the single worst thing you can do so concentrate on fighting that above all else.

Originally Posted by Onward2wards

That's right, it's mah birfday ....

... and going over some old posts of mine I realize ... I'm as stuck today as I have been for a long, long time. Things I want to change are not changing, and I'm pretty fed up. Not fed up enough to get off my rear and change things apparently, just fed up enough to sit here in a mood of passive resignation and mild, grinding annoyance at it all, while staring at the wall. Happy blahday to me.

I'm not looking for hugs. I want to pull my issues out of my head and stomp them into submission once and for all. I'm sorta numb, sorta angry, but mostly just want to eat something sweet and go back to bed.

happy birthday.

(try and enjoy some of your day)

[EnglishDave]

…And when you don't look you are liable to find



Happy Birthday!

Try not to wallow, use the energy from the sugar rush for a little something positive.

Dave.

[gayleggg]

I hate birthdays. They only serve to remind me of things I haven't accomplished. But I hope you can find some joy in the fact that you still have a chance to turn things around. Keep

Originally Posted by gayleggg

I hate birthdays. They only serve to remind me of things I haven't accomplished. But I hope you can find some joy in the fact that you still have a chance to turn things around. Keep

that's exactly the same reason i hate birthdays.

(i hate them so much i don't even list in my profile when it is)

[Serzen]

Hope everything gets better soon.

[dexter]

I don't particularly dislike my birthday although the past few years they serve to remind me how alone I am devoid of family or virtual family. I have a lot of friends and if I throw a party I can get a lot of people to show up but on years when I am not up to organizing a party for myself no one so much as invites me out to dinner. They're all acquaintances, there is no one special enough in my life to want to take the lead in organizing a party or inviting me out. I've organized parties for plenty of friends over the years but now there is no one I would even want to for anyomre.

[dexter]

And things are worse now because everyone figures they can send a happy birthday on Facebook and be done with it. As if it wasn't prompted by Facebook to begin with. Just like I can cure a serious illness by turning my Facebook profile orange for one day or share a status for one hour.

[baseline]

Originally Posted by Onward2wards

That's right, it's mah birfday ....

... and going over some old posts of mine I realize ... I'm as stuck today as I have been for a long, long time. Things I want to change are not changing, and I'm pretty fed up. Not fed up enough to get off my rear and change things apparently, just fed up enough to sit here in a mood of passive resignation and mild, grinding annoyance at it all, while staring at the wall. Happy blahday to me.

I'm not looking for hugs. I want to pull my issues out of my head and stomp them into submission once and for all. I'm sorta numb, sorta angry, but mostly just want to eat something sweet and go back to bed.

Happy Belated birthday O2, I know what you are feeling and I struggle with these thoughts also. The fact that you can recognize that you need a change is a start. Making changes is so hard but maybe you can learn how other people have done it or are trying to do it may be helpful. You are also reaching out which is also very difficult but so important! Sounds like you need some support and understanding. This is a good place for that.