[mulan]

I am very lazy. I don't know if this is a personal trait of mine or if it have to due with depression.
I have so much to do and I can't do it right away, I avoid everything until I have no other choice. I am missing the due time of a lot of things, I can't keep track of everything. I have to finish my thesis, I have to tell if I am going to the ceremonies of finalist students. I have others works to do, I have so much to study, some paid classes to attend... And while everyone else can manage it, I postpone my duties, or I don't pay attention to the important dates and I keep missing stuff or I stress about missing them. I am never sure if I am not missing something.
The information doesn't stick so I have to check it repeatedly, what I end up not doing.
I am so stressed about little things that I feel overwhelmed and I don't know where to turn and what to do.
I have to be responsible but I can't, I make mistakes all the time. Sometimes I do list of what I have to do, but other times I can't. Other times I just forget about every responsibility and I procrastinate...
I want to be more organized, I want to keep track of my life and, well, I can't hire a secretary to keep me aware of what I have to do. What should I do?
I was about to miss the finalist dance because I didn't get my name on the list on time, because I was sure I could do it until the end of these week. It happens the I had to do it until last Tuesday... I resolved this one problem, but I am afraid about what I didn't do yet.
I feel like I have no time to do what I have to do, I feel stressed about it and it feels that is harder to do them.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Mulan: The Skeezyks would simply like to offer his best wishes with the hope that you will be able to find peace in your life...

Mulan: You certainly sound overwhelmed. Are you able to reduce the workload without affecting your primary responsibilities? Does your overall job description require so much to be on your plate all at once? How does your desk look? Is it chaotic? Can you prioritize. Maybe take a day just to tidy up and maybe it won't look so unsurmountable.

There are many people who try to keep busy in order to push out a thought or a situation that is causing angst in their private life. I call it running. Keeping too busy steals the time your spirit needs to gather it's wits and relax. Meditate on your private life and see if there's an unresolved matter you've been putting off. Work is good therapy but if it dominates your being you become a slave to it.

Take a nice bubble bath or sit in the garden and have a cup of tea. Turn of the cell and Blackberry and don't answer any e-mails for a day. Give yourself a break from the daily labors. Any unfinished business of the heart and soul must be completed. Put yourself first and the joy of your job will return.

Regards, M. Poirot

[Max Payne]

I feel your pain, Mulan. My apartment is a mess (not like on that TV show Hoarders, just disorganized) because when I even think about trying to straighten up, I have no idea where to start, and it feels like chaos.

[Clara22]

Hi Mulan,
When my depression worsens I procrastinate and feel very overwhelmed as well. I do not think it is laziness, though. I think it is depression. I wish you the best for this period and send you my best vibes