[Petal7]

Everyday I fight myself over if I should end my life. I wouldn't want my partner to discover me & my children to have no mum. I'm ashamed that I can't cope. I wake up everyday and go to sleep every night thinking about it.

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[emijec]

I wish I had words of wisdom. I know that what we are battling is something severe, something that changes our brain's structure, something that has taken over on how we produce the chemicals in our brain and that has debilitated us, like crushing our knees and making us fall. and yet somehow we are still here, moving on about life wirh this terrible burden that has bled into our every being... with everyone else. there's no shame in that, I think that you trying to be here in this world and now is pretty courageous.
depression and making it all stop go hand in hand. I don't know what to say. I've had thought about wanting a car to hit and kill me. I felt so low... I just wanted something to knock me into not feeling this way anymore, into feeling something else. I'd rather have pain that sadness . is that why we think it so much?

ending life... from one human being to another and from one depressed person to another... I wouldn't ever want you to. you deserve so much better.

[emijec]

Suicidal Ideation Forum - The Depression Forums - A Depression & Mental Health Social Community Support Group

this may help

[ptangptang]

We don't know your mental history but if you haven't told the doctor you must, I know what you get and when depends on where you live in the UK but make that step. Meds may help, cbt may help, group therapy may help. Samaritans is now free to call 116 123. Don't let those thoughts fester in your head. Get help.