[bugbear83]

I'm not sure where to put this, feel free to move but... has anyone ever gotten the impression there's just something wrong with them? Like their body, their face, their voice, the way they talk and express themselves everything's just so goddang alien that it's

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I keep getting thoughts that I should scar up my face. Cut it up a little bit so that would show people what's wrong in a VERY REAL WAY because everyone says I have a "beautiful face" but I know they're either lying or maybe they just don't see it, it's not beautiful, it's not cute, my "skin" isn't nice my complexion is horrible how can they not see that??? Are they lying because they pity me???????? I don't understand I should make a huge slash right across my entire face and then they'll see.

And writing it out makes it seem like a "beauty" thing but it's not. It's a "human" thing.

I don't feel human.

I've had similar urges but for different reasons. I think for me I had just hidden my struggles for so long that it seemed like the best way for everyone to see the real me. I tend to use all my energy perfecting my mask..

[bugbear83]

Right? I work in an office, a place where you have to smile and be happy all the time and sometimes that's easy and other times I stand there listening to people jabber on about stuff and I'm thinking wow I can't focus on what they're saying I'd rather be asleep I'd rather be dead.

[TRIP]

Right? I work in an office, a place where you have to smile and be happy all the time and sometimes that's easy and other times I stand there listening to people jabber on about stuff and I'm thinking wow I can't focus on what they're saying I'd rather be asleep I'd rather be dead

Hi

For what it's worth, I'd rather you be alive. I also don't think it's depersonalization you struggling with.Maybe people tell you you have a beautiful face because that's really what they see even though it's not what you see. Please don't scar up your face, there's certain thoughts that we should just not listen to...