[PsychNitrous]

I woke up today feeling absolutely miserable. It was anxiety early, but after I woke up again for work I know it's just the depression. I don't know how to go on from here anymore. I feel so alone, especially at work where I can't really show my feelings. Though as of this morning I have now cried in front of 3 coworkers. I wish I didn't have to be here, but it's probably better than being home, because I'd just be in bed trying to sleep the day away.

I've felt so incompetent at work lately, and today really topped it off. I had to pass off a new client to a coworker because I know him. He doesn't know me, but I already felt so much more emotionally involved that I knew it was a bad idea to keep working together. But now I feel like I should've just sucked it up and kept going, even though it was probably the best decision for both of us.

I want to feel better, and every step back feels like I'm losing. I'm frustrated that it's been almost 2 months and I don't feel anything from the medication I'm on. Every time I see my therapist now we're digging around in my past, and it hurts so much but I know it's important to deal with. I just want to feel ok for more than a couple of hours.

hopefully you will have better days.

for now if possible try and distract yourself from the thoughts

do something that you love

[Fuzzybear]

(((hugs))) Life is not always fair or easy but somehow we do manage to get through it, one day at a time, one hour, one minute. You are not alone my friend WE are here for you THE PC FORUM FAMILY and we love you! Blessings and tc

[PsychNitrous]

Thanks for the replies. I'm working on just getting the next thing I need to do done right now, so far it hasn't been too bad. My evening is going to be rough, I think. I have 4 hours with nothing to really do at work, but I'm going to try to distract myself with paying bills and maybe playing some of a game I have with me. I'm just trying to hold myself together until I can go home tonight.

[Tink2010!!]

I know exactly how you're feeling. I'm currently not working. I was supposed to graduate in December from college with B.A. but I FAILED....my dean decided it was too much. I had to basically do my internship all over. I finished in the beginning of April. I waited until Friday to find out Pass/Fail. So all of April and this far into May I have been at home alone all day until my boyfriend comes home. I'm tired all day long. I am now on med for depression and Trax a done to help me sleep. I feel a little better but....I'm still tired all day long. All I want to do is sleep the day away.
My "doctor" has encouraged me to set a goal everyday and MAKE SURE THAT IT IS REALISTIC. I think the self reflection every morning can help.

I know how u feel and as much as it seems like something you can't change....u can in some ways. Doing something, anything, can help to distract your thoughts and find new ways to feel good again. YOU CAN DO THIS! WE CAN ALL DO THIS TOGETHER! STAY STRONG.