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hi i have depression and realy bipolar and axiety. been dealing with alot of stress lately. have three girls and two dogs and a hubby. who is wonderful, but works way to much. but has to so we can survive. i guess my reason for writting is to introduce myself and let out a little a steam. had a problem years ago when i was a child with a cousin male cousin. who tried to get too close to me. and recently it has come up again i though my parents pretty much knew everything because when i was 16 the read my diary which had my entire life in it. anyway the cuz wanted to come and visit and see the entire family i have seen hime once maybe since i was married. and i'd like to keep it that way. so my parents declined his invite and i told my dad trhanks he said you know you and i really need to sit down and talk about this because i don't know the entire story i.e. your version. so after years of thinking they knew but just didn't care know i find out they just realy didn't know. ok denile or stupid i don't know which. but i have to go through all this again and i feel as if i'm being questioned as to the facts. i remember everything he did. all the visits i was so sick inside and feeling and being depressed after each visit for about 2 weeks. i remember one winter i had a nervouse break down and it was just after a visit to the cuz house. i was a wreck stayed inside and hid from everybody even a current boyfriend. so i don't see how they could not know. sorry my point is i dislike him very much. and now i have to relive all this crap again just when i thought it was behind me. any thoughts?

((((onyx))))

so sorry that you're having to go through all this. I guess it depends on what you feel would be best for you- to go through it and get some closure on it with your family, or to just leave it, and tell your family firmly but politely that you're trying to put it behind you and don't wish to discuss it..... It depends on what you're most comfortable with I guess..

thank you good advise.

Shelly,

Glad to see your workin your way thru it, getting it out on PC, a big step........Keep writing...

Thinkin of you.........

me