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#1
May 17, 2016, 05:50 AM
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I wish it could "just happen", im fed up of living
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May 17, 2016, 07:03 AM
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I was there 40 years ago...I had given up ...I wanted to die....I didn't have the drive to hurt myself but I WANTED to die big time...to end the torment and hell...but here I am now helping others with depression and suicide at springtime at the peak of suicides...it makes me happy now to have been there...just like you...we both know about that
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May 17, 2016, 07:18 AM
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It it more of a "don't want to live" thing or a "want to die"thing? Because I've found that they're two different things. I often wish I wasn't living, but I also don't want to die.
If it's a "don't want to live" thing- I'm sorry about what's going on in your life that would make something like that seem like it would be better. I find that whenever I get the urge to hurt myself, I work on breathing deeply and taking myself to a place that's not *quite* living. I'm really out of it, but I'm not hurting myself, and I've curved that urge to die. If it's a "want to die" thing, I'm incredibly sorry about how you feel and what makes you think that dying is better than living. Remember the people in your life that care, and the kind of loss and devastation they would feel if you were gone. Again, my breathing technique works for me. Also, if it helps, for a while I was doing something where if I made a healthy decision, I would snap my fingers- someone here mentioned it to me a while ago, and it helped. I'm not saying that the suicidal urges are going to stop altogether, but it's a careful game of chess. If you find a relaxation and treatment technique that works for you, don't hesitate to use it. It's dangerous. If you feel like no one else cares, remember that I do and that I'll be very sad if you're gone. |
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May 17, 2016, 07:19 AM
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May 17, 2016, 12:30 PM
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Im not sure which one i want. sometimes the first, sometimes the second...
i just feel i cant put up with being here anymore. |
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May 18, 2016, 08:22 AM
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how are you today
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#7
May 18, 2016, 08:30 AM
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It's worse than yesterday, but thank you for asking.
i had an argument with my mom about my mental health. she wants me healed, happy and like she has always wanted me as her daughter. none of this is happiening soon or will happen. my MI is not my choice, i'll never be happy and i'll never have her same interests to share with her. im a total disappointment for her and a total failure for me. i feel like giving in and drinking... |
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May 18, 2016, 08:37 AM
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May 18, 2016, 08:55 AM
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I did drink. im crashing down. i dont want to be bad, but i have my own feelings too, right?
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May 18, 2016, 09:05 AM
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I have done bad things...I don't want to be bad....I do bad things all the time...I am working on it...I am trying to patient and kind but I get so angry at so many things....I cant stand the way people are treating others...can you help me with my anger...I don't see you as a bad person....I don't think I am bad...but I have problems... 
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May 18, 2016, 09:25 AM
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as for MY feelings, they are depression, apathy. what can i do? im interested in nothing really. all i wanna do is lay down in my bed. |
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May 18, 2016, 09:34 AM
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May 18, 2016, 09:37 AM
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drinking could be what allows you to express your real feelings, even if in a bad way... |
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May 18, 2016, 09:40 AM
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May 18, 2016, 09:45 AM
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maybe you could try to work on this when you are sober. being more assertive with her. if not you could build up too much anger to suppress it when drunk. |
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May 18, 2016, 09:50 AM
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May 18, 2016, 09:58 AM
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May 18, 2016, 10:51 AM
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My mother said that all women are inferior to men.
 she didn't want me, I was a girl  (So why do such stupid comments stick . It hurts not being loved by own mother, I'm such a .... )Tbh I'm fed up of living too, I wish we could all find a solution to this pain  Quote:
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May 18, 2016, 11:01 AM
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But it is not fair we end our lives because of our mothers
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May 18, 2016, 11:04 AM
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I agree completely
I'm "just" tired   Quote:
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May 18, 2016, 05:57 PM
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Yes, I understand Fuzzy. Also I feel trapped today. I am sending you a big hug in solidarity
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Clara Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out. Vaclav Havel |
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#22
May 22, 2016, 02:07 PM
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Sinking, trust your gut and know that there are plenty of people here who will help and support you through anything.
PM me anytime and we can talk, if you need it. |
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