SAD tonight :(

Well I am home alone and as some of you know I have my kids over at other peoples homes for awhile to visit this summer..... My oldest will be home on the 10th and the youngest I am not sure of he is with his Dad... I have went and bought a dog ( Mastiff & Chow ) she is 7 1/2 weeks old and I bought a ball python that is still a baby.... LOL !!!!!
My 12 yr old is visiting someone else in PHX and she will be home in a couple of weeks...... Anyway My other half is working Graveyards and Now I am worse..... I cannot sleep at all !!!!! Nightmares feel as if someone is coming into my house , I hear things that are not there !!!!
I hear them coming in and there is no one there..... It has only been one night and it is already making me crazy.......
Went to the Doctor and they did there Eval on my thyroid to see what to do with it and they want to wait 3 months to see if it is going to continue and if it does they are going to remove my thyroid.......
I am having nightmares about my Dad , My Ex and my future I do not need any more headaches......
I have a friend who has drove me insane with her lies and her cheating on her husband, I have lost her as a friend and She is making me out to be the bad guy..... All I want to do is sleep I am tired of fighting this uphill battle the PTSD and the depression is driving me nuts I just want to be happy !!!! Is there a way to convince myself that all this is not real that the PTSD and The Depression is fake I can move on just walk away from all this medicine is needed ..... Can you look at your self and say this was not my life and I really did not go through this I am meant for better !!!!! Sorry Babbling again !!!! I just want to want to wake up after sleeping a good sleep and go yep I am finally in my right life....... I want friends who don't lie !!!!! Don't cheat !!!!! And you can trust with anything !!!! I cannot stand people who lie just to run from the truth.......
Any words would help !!!!! troubled1

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No words of wisdom here, but you're in my thoughts.

Kim

Awww...so sorry to hear about a 'friend' adding to things for you.

I understand what you mean, about the 'how did it end up like this?' thing. Not that it helps, but I do understand



<font color=purple>Pain can indeed be a beautiful thing</font color=purple>

again replied in the abuse survivors thread

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Hi troubled

Getting a dog was such a good idea. When you get to know each other better hopefully she will help with some of your anxiety... dogs are very protective you know for those they bond with. Hopefully you will feel safer sleeping once you realize she is there looking out for you.

Hopefully you will have some fun with her too, and maybe the time will pass more quickly.

Plus dogs never lie, and never drag you into their cheating and then blame you for everything. Dogs won't blame you ever! It's good to have some human friends you can trust too though, so good riddence to that one and hopefully others will be more reliable.

Good luck, keep visiting here as long as much as you need to! I hope you will be able to get some restful sleep.

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