I think tonight is going to be bad :(

As some of you know, I have been without internet connection in my halls of residence for a week now, but since my mood hasn't been all that low, it hasn't really affected me that much. But today I have not been feeling good. Thinking of SI, suicide, that type of thing. So tonight is going to be hard, getting through it without the support from you guys. In chat before, somebody told me, 'we'll be with you in spirit', and i will try to think of that. but still, it is not the same as being able to talk with people in chat. so i am a little scared about how tonight will go. i am probably just overexaggerating here though, maybe it won't be so bad.

((((((((((((((((((( silver ))))))))))))))))))))))))) i wish i could be there for you you may have to pull out all your thoughts of friends here and think of us tonite.

if we could talk on phone, i'd do that too. just know we're thinking of you, honey.

love,

((((((((((((((SilverQueen)))))))))))))))))

I feel for you and hope you can get the internet connection soon - we are all still here for you, them nasty thoughts can be so cruel (they want you to believe them).
I hope you can hold on til they pass, i really do.

look after yourself..........Poppet

Thanks Kimmy and Poppet.

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I will keep you in heart.

nightdream

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Silver, I am so sorry that you are feeling bad. I believe that love is a powerful force for good in the Universe -- not a mere "feeling"as most folks would have it. I hope our healing energetic love is with you . . .

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Talk!?

Why the heck not?

there are free apps that support free internet talking.

I am not up to date on this, but maybe this is some thing that would work.

I'll be thinking of you too, along with everyone here... you'll be ok, I'm sure of it, think about the support you have here & the people who care about you so much... I know that it probably will be hard, but I also get the feeling that you will be fine tonight... feel the good vibes from here hon,(((((silver)))))

Thanks, everyone.

I got through the night ok...not even a scratch lol. i still don't feel any better today, but I'll get by.

Thanks for all your support

Silver

I WISH WISH WISH I had internet connection back in my room. I am missing it SO FREAKING MUCH!!! I found out that the admin had tried to contact me a few days back, and I found out today from one of my flatmates that they had rung the flat phone a few days back when I had been out. She never thought of writing down a message! So now I know that they rang me and she said that they wanted to know when they could come to my room and try to fix it. But I dont know who to ring! So I could get the internet fixed but I dont know who to contact! And then it'll be just my luck that I will find out and they won't be able to fix it over the weekend. I imagine I will be without the internet in my flat over the weekend and I am fed up of having to come on public computers all the time. Yeah I know i am lucky to get internet at all but when i had got used to having in the privacy of my room where i could use it all times of the day or night, it's hard now having to use it here with peopel next to me using computers too, it doesnt feel private anymore. and also i have to stop using it at something like 6pm. nobody else in my life other than my counsellor knows how i feel and i dont get to see her again until Wednesday. i rely on this place so much.

Hi Silver --

Lot's of things that are do-able seem overwhelming when our disease is talking strongly. (I know -- it's happening to me right now. Always easier to give encouragement that to feel encouraged!)

I think you can probably figure out who can restore your net connection with a few phone calls. I used to be a reporter, and that means I had to sit a phone for as many hours as it took to find that one person who had the authority and information to answer the questions I wanted to know. So I've gotten hardened to that chase. The new voice mail systems have made it much harder, however. How many times have I been given a list of choices that don't include the option I need? But that's another story . . .

At any rate, I should think that you would start with the department that oversees Campus Housing. Another place might be the Computer Services department. If your campus is small enough -- shower -- put on some clean clothing and walk over. They can't use voice mail on us when we show up in person.

Best wishes for getting your service restored.

Thanks for keeping us posted on how you are.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((Silver Queen)))))))))))))))))))))))

Ok, so I am in the university library, and they are closing in a few minutes! How can they close at 7pm! I was thinking of staying here until the time it usually vloses at which is 10pm. i am needing support at the moment and i cant get it because of this verdammte internet connection! i cant spend enough time here to get much benefit from it and it's not private enough. and the time when i need it the most which is when i am alone in my room at night, i dont have it i need to get it fixed here and quickly, it's going to be hard getting through the weekend without connection in the flat, at the weekend the library only opens 10am-6pm

i am really sorry to keep whining on about an internet connection but i am really missing you guys at nigh because i feel worst then.

Thanks ((((((((wants2Fly)))))))) for those suggestions. I will get it sorted out somehow. Except I hate using the phone

But i do need to sort it out soon.

Thanks for posting.

Phew!!! It's a;ll ok now. I was writing up my diary 10 minutes ago and then I saw it come up on the computer screen: 'Local Area Network is now connected'! It means I am now on the internet in my flat again! Yahoo!

Yeeees!! Cool, glad it's sorted! (((((silver)))))

Yaaaay Silver. I will put my bat back into the closet

Thanks for the hugs, (((((Phoenix))))))

lololol wantto!!

Wonderful sweety! I'm so glad for you!

(((((((((((((Silver)))))))))))))))

nightdream