Just realized

I'd been dreading making a phone call to a customer I talk to every couple of weeks. Our interactions over the phone have always been very laid back and she jokes a lot and so I joke around a lot with her too, just to make her think I'm normal and nothing is wrong. But I'm not in a good place right now and the thought of having to act like I was, was just exhausting.

Which is when I realized that people (including myself) that are dealing with a form of mental illness are probably some of the best actors ever.

Totally agree. I go through life as a complete fraud. I have been in my new job for 7 months now and there is not one person in that place who knows me - they all see the professional, capable, friendly and helpful but reserved co-worker. There is NOT ONE person there who knows anything about me at all. Perhaps its jut learned from years and years of practice.

That is why when we think that we are the only ones in such a depression and that everybody is doing just fine while we are misfits perhaps many around us are just pretending and we are not so alone with depression, after all