[Humpty Dumpty]

I'm at the point where I don't know what to do. My depression is horrible & overwhelming. Everything I do to try and take a step forward only makes it worse. "Try and go and talk to someone." I have tried and they don't seem to listen. Whenever I try sifting through a large list of therapists my insurance would cover only makes my depression & anxiety worse & leaves me feeling hopeless. I am just so tired of trying to fight. Maybe if I were making some kind of progress I wouldn't feel like this. Maybe I'm the problem. There comes a point in time when you have to look and say what's the common denominator? I say they don't listen & they don't care. Everyone? Maybe I'm the problem. The best way to deal with a problem is to remove it. After all I deserve this. I brought this on myself.

I have a great deal of respect for those of you that can manage your depression. I know I need serious help but I'm beyond helping.

I honestly believe no one is beyond help.

And even if you feel you are not making progress, you have recognized you need serious help. That in itself is progress, I think.

I hope you find a way to get the help you need and deserve.

Hang in there!

[TishaBuv]

Are you taking an anti depressant? You can even get them prescribed by your primary Doctor. We're here and listening.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty

I'm at the point where I don't know what to do. My depression is horrible & overwhelming. Everything I do to try and take a step forward only makes it worse. "Try and go and talk to someone." I have tried and they don't seem to listen. Whenever I try sifting through a large list of therapists my insurance would cover only makes my depression & anxiety worse & leaves me feeling hopeless. I am just so tired of trying to fight. Maybe if I were making some kind of progress I wouldn't feel like this. Maybe I'm the problem. There comes a point in time when you have to look and say what's the common denominator? I say they don't listen & they don't care. Everyone? Maybe I'm the problem. The best way to deal with a problem is to remove it. After all I deserve this. I brought this on myself.

I have a great deal of respect for those of you that can manage your depression. I know I need serious help but I'm beyond helping.

Hey Humpty, I can understand that you don't feel well about doctors (read that part). I'm sure you have found out what Dystemia is about for now, but if you want to refresh your knowledge, here is a description easy to read. Click at "Types of Depression":

Depression Symptoms & Warning Signs: How to Recognize Depression Symptoms and Get Effective Help

Dystemia is, the way I understood it, a form of depression that is chronic and that from time to time can become worse (double depression). Support is very important for depressed persons. Hope you found the link to the online support that I gave at your other thread.

When we are depressed, we all have to try to build a rhythm into our lives, eat at almost fixed times, go to bed at almost fixed times ...., because that helps our bodies to adjust and use as little energy as possible. We have very little energy when we are depressed. Relaxation exercises and physical activity are the next steps. All these may make your depression more easy to carry. If you cannot use medication, may be it is an idea to try something natural, as an example: St. John's Wort.

For some of us depression becomes worse in the dark period of the year. Last Autumn I tried to follow a thread in the "Self-Help Ideas and Goal Setting" forum, here, and hope to try again this year.

I know this was not much help, but if you start to use a notebook to help you to remember if you did these almost necessary things every day, it will be more easy for you to have control with the relation between your small things to get better and how it affects your depression.

Sorry I couldn't help more!