[Djinn8]

Best way I can describe this is to write about how a typical day goes down.

I wake up, usually quite late. i make a cuppa, browse the internet for a bit and chill. If it's crap weather out I'll play computer games and the day's basically a write off. So long as the next day isn't the same, and the one after that, I'm generally OK with this. I've got used to entertaining myself at home. It doesn't make me feel good or bad, just feels normal.

If the weathers decent, I'll get dressed, jump on my bike, pick a direction and drive until I'm lost in the countryside. I get a kick out of driving the twisties and pushing myself to be a better driver. While I'm riding my mind is completely focused on bike control so I prefer the isolation. I don't think I'd enjoy riding with other bikers much as they'd only provide a distraction.

At some point I'll find some cafe or pub and stop for lunch and a drink. I'll sit alone and study my maps, looking for interesting roads or locations to visit. I always feel a bit weird sat at a table alone while everyone else is with friends and family and chatting. I feel a lot of resentment towards them - envious at the basic social privilege that seems to be default for everyone but me.

When I've finished up and planned a route, I'll head out again. When I get to "wherever", I'll walk around the museum, gallery, zoo, sit by the lake, hike the trail: do whatever it is I've found myself at and take it in. But it always feels like an pointless exercise; like I'm missing half the experience - that these places are backdrops for social occasions and as such they're wasted on me. The things I experience can't be shared and so they become lost as a memory and my insights are wasted.

Ah, **** it... I don't even know where I'm going with this and don't have the patience at the moment to work it out.

What do you lot get out of doing things on your own?

[mindwrench]

You have described some things so closely it gives me chills. While I have not ventured out like that in awhile, I sure used to and on motorcycles. I recall one time I went to the royal gorge in Colorado and took in some amazing scenery. Many times while I was there I even spoke like i was not alone, like either a girlfriend, wife, or best friend was with me though I had none of those. There is a special kind of loneliness in doing things by yourself, especially if you want someone in your life to share things with.

[northbelle]

That was beautiful..
I live next to a beautiful park and library...a long walk through the backtrail and through a park..the library is at the end.
I don't make it out every day either...accepting being alone is difficult. I miss my 4 grown children.
I like to go to the café too..read my books..
Two days in is about my limit as well..maybe I will look for a new route to venture out to..

[Djinn8]

Might as well share something here since I can. Came across this road the other day while I was driving about. Had a bit of magic to it.

[handheart]

Well its very good that you do this things but it seems to me that you are too izolated and thats create some dezolation ,try to speak more with people as they are part of the life ,next time try to take a friends with you and see what happens

[northbelle]

That winding roadlooks like something I have only read about in a fairy tale! What a magnificent countryside!

[Djinn8]

Originally Posted by handheart

Well its very good that you do this things but it seems to me that you are too izolated and thats create some dezolation ,try to speak more with people as they are part of the life ,next time try to take a friends with you and see what happens

I don't have any friends. Haven't for about 6 years. It's not for a lack of trying to meet people, but I've given up on it ever being achievable. I'm just trying to find peace in isolation now.

I feel like I do so much for myself, on my own. I live by myself and go bike riding by myself, along with eating. I've been along for so long, I feel like I've gotten used to it. But there are times when it gets me down.

I have traveled long-distance by myself also. It's been quite a while since I went anywhere far away. The last trip I had was four years ago. I went to Rapid City, SD to visit Mt. Rushmore and other things in the area. I had a good time. The nights were lonely for me. I stayed in a nice cabin that was like a little house to me. Other years I went places by myself. But lately I have not gone anywhere far away because of money. I don't know what had happened, when there was a time I could easily afford a good trip somewhere. But now I can't.

What kind of bike do you drive? I used to have a GSXR750 but now I'm older, I'm thinking of a Gunner or a Springfield. I live in SW England. Also trying to make myself enjoy my,own company more.

[Djinn8]

Originally Posted by Little Cat

What kind of bike do you drive? I used to have a GSXR750 but now I'm older, I'm thinking of a Gunner or a Springfield. I live in SW England. Also trying to make myself enjoy my,own company more.

I have a 2004 model Honda CB600f Hornet. One of the best mid-range bikes on the market in my opinion. Just wish the tank was a bit larger.

Is the GSXr750 a faired bandit or something else?

[Always Hurting]

I spend most of my time alone at home. I have my two dogs that are always glued to me but no people interactions really. My kids are grown too so I only see them every once in a while. I do go out when I have to. I'm starting a new job so that will get me out more. Sometimes I do go out to eat and I sit alone and I too feel jealous of those around me. I just wish I could relate to people but I just can't. I can bs my way through a conversation with anyone but that only lasts for a few minutes. I prefer to be alone but yet sometimes I long for the company of another human being.

It was "the" first mass market sports bike, but not a faired Bandit

Suzuki GSX-R 750 2006-2010

But as I get older, I get more backache, hence the change to a cruiser. Being a woman limits my choice of bike because of height and weight......